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Me doing art for others: The line is two pixels too long. The middle finger is too short. The colors are one pixel over the lineart. The shading isn't fully blured. Lighting is too bright! Everything. Needs. To. Be. Perfect.

Me drawing my own pfp everyone will see: lol the eyes don't even align who cares shading will cover it.

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In other words small break from commisions and painful coloring, hopefully I'll do some more progress before sleep.

So... So I'm finishing making my new pfp, and meanwhile I'm also reading all these SCP x Reader fanfictions and... and what the heck.

Like they're mostly good, sometimes cringy and almost always antagonize the foundation for some reason, but that's not the point. For some reason they give me headache and also make me really want to write a dumb SCP fanfiction. That's the territory of fanfictions I haven't yet touched. But I'm tempted.

Honestly, I'm really tempted to write a dumb SCP fanfiction. But I don't know if my brain can handle it.

Also finished my Budew hunt, now starting the zubat hunt which is probably a bad idea since the person in my friendlist is also doing one succesfully taking all the eggs from the tall grass and leaving me with overly expensive gems :>
I can't afford this hunt but I'll keep going.

New pfp was made! Yesterday.

My wi-fi just kinda died at the end of the day so I had to post it today. Looks great, at least for now.

Yup, SCP-049 with Spritzee because no-one stopped me. Would Honchcrow or Plaguecrow fit better? Who cares! If I want deadly murderous sociopath SCP with pink Fairy birb I will make deadly murderous sociopath SCP with pink fairy birb!

God that was a hard sentence.

I read wayy too many SCP fanfictions and that kinda sucks. Got an awful headache yesterday but it's getting better. At least for now.

Okay time to work on commisions a little bit more because I don't know what am I doing with my life!

God I'm so tired, when I'm done with online classes Imma take a nap and maybe be social then. Trying to keep myself up with music sucks tbh.

It only made me realise how messed up my music taste is.

Tommorow is the last day of my school year~
I might finally stop stressing so much~
And have some free time~
And remember to do something else than lying in bed thinking about the end of the universe~

Working on commisions rn, a bit later than usual. I wish I knew exactly why but I can't really tell.
Tho' I suspect it's because I'm finishing the coloring for big scary picture and it's taking a while. Like, rn I have 90 done, so that's great. After that I'll try to do coloring on the last one, maybe some shading on the second one and we're done.

Also I need to work on new sprites, but that's gonna take a while.

Also Also ( I really don't know how to start sentences lol ) I'm thinking about doing a Scribbl io? As in pokemon only, I would have to write some really random pokemon and write them in. It won't be much tho because I don't know how many can fit.

But I'll do that, maybe later. Or I'll try.
back to drawing!

Commision update because I'm slowly losing sanity!~

Com 1 - Sent
Com 2 - FINISHED COLORING! THE WORST PART IS DONE! Now only playing with shading, lighting and some prespective fixing, which is all great and pleasant so I'm not worried.
Com 3 - Didn't do anything rlly, It's already colored and I'll start shading tommorow or later today
Com 4 - Finished coloring, partly, only need to add some details and then we're done.

See, I'm making progress! I'm gonna soon get that sweet sweet PD because looking at it at "gifts" is horrible and I need to finally move on with my ditto fund since it's been standing in place for a while.

Also fun fact: There are more SCP fanfictions than I expected. Like, way more. And I'm gona read all of them once again.

Fun fact vol 2: After my mega cuff runs out and I take a break from shiny mega hunts. I'm gonna start hunting Plaguecrow. Probably from the daycare since getting event pass for both evos would cost me around 12k nuggets. Nah mate I'd rather do a giveaway and help someone with their premium goals than do that.

but before I need ditto fund done and have at least 40+ egg storage with how "quick" event eggs are getting xd

Okay but, have you ever seen dog with panties?
My dog has to wear then, as in underwear, only because she's on "period" (I dunno english name so don't ask) and she has to wear them overnight to not dirty the bed. In the day we don't mind since she spends 90% of her time outside.

Also question to ask yourself: Why. Are. People. Into. Yandere. Characters.
Or stalkers for that matter. Like, does that turn you on? Why does that turn you on? Tell me. It's probably because of narcissism or wanting to be, y'know, someones most prized posession or something like that.

God I'm rambling again. But I'll have to add: I love my pfp rn, like I really love it, it looks so clean and flawless. Or I'm just tired and egoistic but I really love it.

C-O-M-M-I-S-S-I-O-N U-P-D-A-T-E

God I'm so tired today let's do thiss

Com 1 - X
Com 2 - Not touched today, yet at least
Com 3 - Shading in progress
Com 4 - Finishing touches

I don't know why but I'm just so tired today, for no reason at all. At least the school year is over! Yay? I mean I just hope I get to sleep well and draw more. Nothing much since I don't expect anything else from myself. I suck enough no need to add more to that.

But hey, maybe my social skills will get better?
Nah mate.
Not a chance.

oh god... june is getting close to the end and I didn't write anything god save me

Another very short update because writing those helps me focuse.

Why am I considering writing a cringe-worthy fanfiction? Honestly probably to just make myself happy. Recently I started wondering how many people who post or don't post fanfiction have some private comfort works. Like, I have legit years of longer and shorter unfinished fanfictions. Just because they make me happy and writing them was a pleasure (or not, venting is also a thing) and honestly I feel like most fanfictions I see online are comfort projects.

Comfort projects have one big issue tho' they're usually written without clear plot in mind, without outline and are very much temporary. That is also why I love them, but it's a big reason why they shouldn't be posted online. Without an outline, you won't go almost anywhere. And if the work is temporary, someone might start liking it, just for you to not really care about it anymore. Other fact: they're very much repetetive.

It's not much of an issue with x reader writers. But I've seen (or recognize from memory, don't take my word on it, I'm mainly speaking from my own experience) a few writers who have almost the same oc just in different fandoms. I still have that issue, but they're comfort characters, so I don't care.

Few examples from my own experiences:

1. Years 2017-2018 were filled why fanfictions of character named Leah or Lea. Who was a pokemon trainer, usually op and usually sister of N. Usually had an Umbreon or Zorua, sometimes kanto starters or Eevee and usually was abused by her parents. (I'm so glad I didn't post it anywhere, abuse there is a joke and a dumb plot device)
1.1. There are of course exceptions. With a character Candance (edgy worker for team rocket like organization), a
character named Victini (OP fire legendary trainer), a character named "Only" with a great surename "One"
("worked" since I write in polish) who was an OP ice trainer and character named Olana/Olena (I couldn't decide
apperantly) who was a cliche gal from alola who had an eeveelution (stolen design from google because younger
me)

2. Years 2019 to present I have similar problem, but I'm not trying to get rid of it since those are all comfort fictions, not anything I was planned to post (like I did with unlikable leah). Now my character naming divides by fandoms. Harry Potter usually has Mellissa Fialaay or lately Cinnamon Coffinberry, used to also have variations of Charlotte Deadlock. Pokemon now has either: Charlotte, Eloise, Anastaisa, Sonia or Clara. Bnha usually had Miyako Kurume or Reiko Aizawa/Hiirooki (I stopped writing since a year ago, names became a headache).
2.1. But I had ecountered another problem! No surenames. So characters almost always have surname Deadlock or
something dumb like Berry, Rivers that a random generator gave me. A difference if Cinnamon Coffinberry, but
surename is also from a random generator. Because I suck at english surenames and giving my characters polish names
or surenames still makes me cringe thinking of bad... well you'll see.

3. Fanfictions. With. Real people. DON'T. I can think of a very few exceptions. Such as personas, honestly only personas and synonyms for a persona. Ex. Danplan kinda flews by since people are usually describing personas, not real people, other than that it's kinda ew or SCP, but that's also kinda weird since people on site have the same y'know "Dr. Gears" characters is still "Dr. Gears" writer. Still, I can let that flew by since we're talking about character that isn't real.
3.1. Cringe time! I wrote a fanfiction with self-insertish character named Anastazja (polish version of Anastasia, had a phase for that name) in early 2019. I hate it for one reason only. Because the character was supposed to be dating a youtuber. It makes me cringe just looking at it. Don't do that. Please.

4. Shipping and lack of it. For most people it would be thing like "Poor shipping, unrealistic love, wayyy too much wayyy too detailed 18+ content". For me it's the opposite. I couldn't for the love of god write relationships. Like, I can't. I just can't. I've never written characters KISS or HOLD HANDS romantically. I cringe writing HUGS. I can imagine that stuff, but writing it? Eewww.
4.1. Example: Any of my longer pokemon fanfictions. Main character is supposed to have a crush/be dating etc. my for some reason favourite character Clemont. Don't ask I just like the nerd. But I don't have A SINGLE FANFIC where they just CONFESS. OR ANYTHING FOR THAT MATTER. Like there's just this internal blockade stopping me from writing romance. WHY??? I feel like it's probably from obvious lack of experience but that still sucks. I read so many shipping fanfictions I should have at least cringe-worthy attempts at writing love. But nope. I can't. I physically can't.
4.2. And this also goes for canon characters! Which I hate. Especially since writing canon characters is... NEXT POINT!

5. Writing canon characters. I also can barely do that. I do it the "best" in Pokemon and Harry Potter as in I'm most comfortable with the characters. But that still sucks. Like legit writing canon characters just makes me go "ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what is someone see this? That's not something Ash would do..." While it's something Ash would 101% do.

6. LGBT+ Characters. Online fanfic issue: "gay good lesbian bad" "uwu overly graphic 18+ stuff and gross descriptions" "owo gays are my fetish material". My issue: "what if I'm like them". Honestly lately I just started doing a: "why should they be together" and then "why wouldn't it work with different gender". It kinda helps, and the worst part is that lgbt relationships are not like, main thing in my stuff. Just side characters.
6.1. Example: Infamous Merrill/Maxwell/Lawrence and Sam/Sylvester/Finn/Ohgodsomanynamesforthetwink used to be my biggest enemy. Because I kept writing them (and still do) and filing like they're just in the story because they're gay. I essentially left them out of some stories but then it felt incomplete and I brought them back. Soon enough making them more important (as in Merrill is a sea, mermaid-like creature important to the story and Finn knows stuff he shouldn't know, in very short) but then was my favourite worst, question about, why it can't be girls? Or straight relationship? Well harry potter universe comes to mind. Drama. In short, Finn is a Muggleborn Hufflepuff while Merrill is a Pureblood Slytherin. If you don't see where this is going and you're in Harry Potter fandom... well let's just say family drama and intolerance in wizarding world. Of both sexuality and muggleborns. So in that reasoning, both girls would've worked. The only problem being I needed to have Merrill in guys dorm with certain characters, so that's why they're both guys.
6.2. Example 2, my newest one: BNHA fanfic that isn't gonna happen soon. Two characters: A werewolf who can't control himself during full moons and a lot of details I can't write in english, and a half-cheetah who's esentially a tsundere with a bit more plot. I recently came to the conclusion that making them both girls wouldn't work simply because of the whole werewolf thingy (clothes being tore, a lot of gore) and straight wouldn't work because of the same reason. even if I made the cheetah a girl (gooooooooore)
6.3. Some decent examples: Felicia Chapman/Moore, a trans gal I've grown attached to and frantically ship with Cedric. Don't @ me she's the only character that survived all harry potter fanfictions she's great. Rella/Ella/Elizabeth from Ravenclaw, who's all in for Cho Chang. Larika and Aurora, two very old ocs from pokemon. I don't know if you see the pattern, but for some reason I feel less bad for making lgbt female characters than I do with male. Main reason for this might be that I feel like I'm fetishizing the characters more when I write gay relationships (since you know, so much weird stuff on AO3, wattpad and deviantart, everywhere) than with lesbian relationships. Simply because one is more popular than the other.

7. PLOT. WHAT'S THAT? Honestly tbh, most of my fanfictions really don't have it. And I feel like most of the stories I read that aren't at least 10+ chapters long are also like that. It's just kinda, I have an idea, for like, 3 chapters, that should be 25 chapters apart.
7.1. My most pokemon stories now: 3 characters go on a adventure, OP but lazy MC, a bubbly shiny hunter and a pesimistic suprisingly straight future fairy gym leader. Also sprinkle some Dragon x Ice gymleaders for good measure and we're done.
7.2. My most harry potter stories: Snape is better than in canon. MC has scars all over her face because Krenia is kinky for scars. MC is a Hufflepuff. MCs mother is a god-like being who rips peoples skin from their faces.
7.3. I wish I knew my most BNHA fics. But they take longer since I have to think about quirks and names. But it's usually just: ay this is class 2-A and they're gonna be training with you, also they all have trauma and love for bloodshed.

8. Character design? Naaaaaaah. Honestly with fanfics it's usually that until the "date" or something similar where characters is dressing up you don't know how they look. Or with overly detailed descriptions. With me, it's both.
8.1. Main character in PKMN option 1: ginger hair, F R E C K L E S, blue/gray eyes, big hoodie, "fite me", a gremlin, probably a dark or grass pokemon, eventually electric types because uwu clemont.
8.2 Main character in PKMN option 2: bad female dog, vitiligo because it's great, double colored hair because edgy, dark types or very op pokemon. Will kick your butt. Doesn't like you but kindof respects you.
8.3 Main character in HP 1: Edgy. White mask. R a t s. No skin. Literally, just scars. One eye. No nose, ears or fingernails. Did I mention edgy? Secret organization at hogwarts. Twins have to be there ofc. Probably hates harry. Suprisingly a Ravenclaw?
8.4. Main character in HP 2: Hufflepuffle. You mess with my mates you mess with me. Soft, like really soft. Still scars. Likes the fixed-by-krenia version of Snape. Mess with her mates you get poisoned. Prefect but looses badge at some point due to being agressive. Probably not even worthy of being a hufflepuff.

okay that's it for now because my keyboard is dying there must be so many grammar mistakes but I don't care tbh my hands hurts. I've never written this much in english in one go before wow.

also I've never said owo and uwu this many times before and that scares me.

krenia out~

"another very short update"
Yeah sure lol

"focuse"
English much

Okay but since I'm kinda trying to "warm up" for writing. As in trying to get ideas. I'm reading both my old stories (from late 2019 and early 2020) and the one (1) scp ask blog I could find and... one thing... just one.

Why do are y'all so horny for yandere characters??? It's always abusive??? It's always either stalking or manipulation??? Why??????????? I mean, from writing point of view, It can be a great plot divice. BUT THOSE ARE X READER ONE SHOTS. WHYYYY?????????????

Okay back to reading and feeling sorry for myself :3

god i hate this day

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I hate myself.
I spent all morning helping my mom with the garden and everything either hurts or itches. Great end to the school year. Again, no progress, only touched some snails because why not. God I want to sleep, I'm all sweaty and dirty and thirsty. Ughh

Bad morning, 10/10 would not reccomend.

Other people: Chain 500 no sm
Also other people: Chain 2k+, hunting for over a year, no sm

Me: chain below 200, SM.

Either mega cuff is OP, I'm lucky or system is messed up xd
I don't complain tho, only 2 more shinies for evos and I'm moving on to Dunsprace hunt.

and later mega Charizard, because I just got a great idea for a nickname for a SM Charizard Y :>
Also unpopular opinion: Mega Charizard Y is better than X

I only have 2 emotions/feelings towards my drawings:
1. I'm horrible-e, I'm never gonna improve, how am I supposed to make a living out of something in such a [REDACTED] country-y-y...
2. I'm a god and you are a peasant. My skills are superior to yours and you're five years older than me. Don't even look at me. Peasant.

Like honestly, those are the only two reactions I have towards my art. Unless we're talking about redraws. I'm always proud of redraws. ESPECIALLY THE PURPLE BAT GIRL. HER ESPECIALLY.
Also I'm thinking of bringing her back, but...
Not in Undertale universe. Since she doesn't work out there. Probably just some separate furry/anthro universe or just as a comfort character, and I need to find/make her a gf, because oh boy do I want to design a chubbyshortpreferablypastelpalette anthrosnekcharacter.
I AM GONNA MAKE A CHUBBY SNAKE OR LIZARD YOU'LL SEE

Okay back to commisions because I almost didn't make any progress today and I want to send them all in by tommorow—

Do... Do you ever just almost break your arm because people are nice to you???
I mean like honestly: just two people *cough**cough* Talis and Magical_Magikarp *cough**cough* randomly gave me gems because I posted a feed saying I'm looking to exchange gems for my hunt. Through gifts. Like thanks but I'm not too good with people being nice.

Like, you'd think from my attidude it would be something like "ofc people would love me uwu" but I'm more like "*slaps hand* WHY?! *hits herself again* WHY ARE PEOPLE NICE?!"

Tbh I'm just a mess xd

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WHY ARE PEOPLE HERE NICE?
I'M SERIOUSLY NOT USED TO THAT HHHH—

I mean what less did I expect from user named god~ but still

People are giving away gems that cost like, literally fortune. Over 60k. ?????????????????????????????????

Krenia is not good with people being nice!

My arm hurtss :((
Really bad :((
Probably because I'm not used to physical work and I had a lot of crouching, getting up, picking stuff up etc. today but it still sucks :((

Makes drawing and writing really hard :(((
And I want to draw :(((
I want to draw blood :((

Hey uh, don't mind my age and my love for gore please

My arm still hurtsss
It's really hard to write, like my fingers are getting stiff.

On the bright side! I finished reading the f u l l SCP ask blog. kinky is all I'm gonna say.

My arm still hurts, but a bit less. So that's a plus.
PH is dying, which is sad. I mean it's only profiles and palpad but lack of palpad really/kinda hurts.

Also also I'll start doing commisions soon. Just gotta take a nap first...

I don't know why but it makes me really uncomfortable that I can't see mine or anyone elses profile pic. Like legit I just feel uneasy because of that and I don't know why

Also I'll probably start commisions soon, the second one was commisioned almost a week ago and it makes me feel bad it's taking so long. Tho I gave 2 months limit so Idk why am I complaining

Wait did I change my toyhouse profile pic? Gimme a sec. I do realise I'm writing these shuttup. Nope I did not time to change it— God It died I'm gonna try later.

Okay now I should start shading on all of those commisions because If I slack even more I'm not gonna finish them soon and shading half-transparent crystals and fur isn't as easy as I remembered. But lighting, oh lightning, I'm gonna enjoy it way-y too much. But shiny spots are the best spots.
Was that kinky or am I just tired?

Ayy another post because I just started taking care of myself I got dressed and brushed my hair, that's self-care for me,,

So I've been hit by a wave of minecraft memes and I started to miss playing minecraft. Like I legit started missing minecraft, the point is, when I play alone, it usually goes on for like, a day or two, and then I just kinda delete the survival world because I get bored. Playing alone is so much less fun.

I used to play with my friend/neighbor but we last time talked a year ago and I see him everyday but we just kinda, look at eachother, sometimes say "Hi/Hey" and that's it. But I remember playing minecraft with him when I was 7. He downloaded minecraft on my laptop (now I use different launcher because zyczu started to suck a little bit) and showed me the best servers best polish ones that is. I remember dumb stuff like getting my laptop to his room so that we can play mini-games together or sky-wars together.

That was awfully nostalgic but also nice.

Gosh I need a friend to play minecraft with. Preferably a one that doesn't mind that I don't have a skin since launchers xd

if anyone knows how to make a minecraft server and wants to play hmu when the palpad mess is over because I really miss playing minecraft lol

The Icons are b a c c
My birdy bois are visible :3

I don't know if you can tell but I really love this pfp for no reason. Like, honestly it makes me just so happy seeing it and also so proud that I made it :D

Probably has something to do with my huge ego but low self-esteem (it's possible, don't as how) bt I dunno, I'm just proud and happy to see it. It's one of those pieces that is just nice to look at.

But back to commisions!
Since I don't have commision updates i'm gonna tell how much each took/is taking:
Com 1 (sent) — A bit over 2h for a fully shaded fullbody is not that bad
Com 2 (coloring done) — A bit over 3h is really bad when I didn't start shading
Com 3 (shading in progres) — Almost 5h is bad but since 2 characters I can give it a pass
Com 4 (done not sent) — A bit over 2h for a fullbody. Lot more details than the first one. (not a lot just... just more)

And bonus: The ohgodiloveithighegouwu pfp took me almost exactly 1h 30 min!
i love ibis paint for those times, but whenever I leave a file open for night it counts it as time I worked on it which is kinda dumb, because it shows that I worked on one piece 14h which is definetly not the case since it took 3h max.

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yeah yeah lot of post i know i know

But godd listening to SCPs while drawing? 10/10. Great.

yes that's all.