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*SLAM*oh god my arm

First of all, my wifi is dying I legit can't interact and it sucks. SECOND of all...

C O M M I S I O N U P D A T E
why am I even posting those here?

Com 2 - Basic shading started, not smudged
Com 3 - DONE
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GOD I want to get this over but my tablet is low on battery because I didn't charge it overnight so I'll either wait till tommorow or try again few hours later.

A l s o (my favourite word if you couldn't tell already) I'm planning on writing something. I, I know I've been saying this since a few weeks now (probably) but I'm getting closer since I've been reading my old stuff and it's so gross but also so-so fun!

I recently started loving writing here, since it's a nice place to went. The more I write the lower the chances someone checks this out.
the opposite you degenerate

TIME. TO. RANT.
or in other words
Krenia resurrects old ocs.

So I'm thinking about re-writing my old Harry Potter fic or as always using the same concept with little tweaks. I'm gonna share stuff here because why not, it's not original so there's nothing to steal lol.

Original story went something like this (english is hard bear with me):
There's Isabelle Deadlock, mary suish MC with scars all-over her body. She created a "secret" organization which is basically people doing favours for people and sometimes still stuff so I don't see why it's secret but that's not the point. There are also 3 different ocs there and 2 canon characters. They don't really matter other than fact that they're all from different houses and deal with different stuff:
- Isabelle/Melissa (awfull alias. "Mask" because she wears a mask to hide scars because edgy) : collects info and does potions. Mainly due to the fact I had an awful Snape faze then. She's a Ravenclaw with a lots of rats (in one version a snek but she was also par... long word, she talked to sneks) who has her own dorm for safety reasons because her mother is technically a mythical being trying to kill her.
- Merrill/Maxwell (nicknames I don't know how to translate, were dumb based on his scar) : steals stuff and writes letters to other members. His main personality trait was that he's gay and misunderstood. I hate this version of him because it was mainly written based on stuff like: "wizarding world is intolerant" which is true but then: "all slytherins are evil!" which is jk being stupid. Oh yeah he's also a Slytherin if you couldn't tell. And also a Pureblood.
- Finn/Sylverster (nickname based on music, can't translate) : He smuggles stuff. Which is dumb since the twins were said to do it in canon. His whole character was again: he's gay and his bf is M dude. There was also plot that he was abused in few stories but I'm not really sure. Also all have the same thing that he's curly haired, short, blonde dude but in one of them he's also albino? For some reason I might use this. Muggleborn Hufflepuff because d r a m a.
- Ah, Ben/Archie (based on food or decorations, don't ask me) : he... he's basically there to be a gryffindor? He had something to do with spells but nothing practical. The part that his parents are in Azkaban for being death eaters, not framed, they actually were death eaters is pretty cool. I'm sure I didn't flesh it out but if I were to, I would probably keep them gryffindors. For drama.
- And... Weasley twins. No nicknames, no nothing, just for sake of pushing plot foward. They were actually useful in context of the plot. As in, in context of the "secret organization" thingy I was trying to pull of since y'know, they do pranks, they do potions and they do charms. Honestly they could be the organization themselves. Which I want to utilize but that's for later.

OKAY GOD THAT WAS LON—
frick the plot i didn't explain the plot
*ekhm*
small trigger warning, some bad but gross descriptions

Plot happens in GOF. Basically Erma (Isabelles mother) has an organization similar to death eaters, but no free will. As in, they are under her control, more or less. The names vary, but mainly they are reffered to as something similar to "stitches" so I'll stick with that.

During GOF we have Durmstrang and Beuxbatons, Karkarow is one of Stitches as well as Death Eaters. Which Isabelle knows and wants to somehow (using her rats/snake) get information from him about Erma. Since Isabelle (i'll refer to her as Mask, it's easier) knows that Erma wants to kill her.

(Small backstory in the middle: Erma basically tears faces of people she deems beautiful, sometimes also theirs skin, in order to stitch parts of others skin to her own. If she does that, she can transform into that person freerly. Even if their skin has been already deleted/stitched over (ew thats weirder when I write that). Erma can control anyone who has at least three of her stitches in their skin (stitches are like death eater markings, forgot english name) if the stitches are removed, she can no longer control the person, but will feel if they're close. Erma stitches anyone she deems useful.

If anyone has some sort of open wound (cut for example) and Erma knows the specific of the wound (ex. Krenia cut her left hand middle finger with a knife) she can send dreams upon this person. If that happens 3 nights in a row. One stitch will appear on the persons body.

Some time ago, blah, blah Erma "fell" in love with a man, who depending on which story I read is either a random dude, artist (since he portrayed her as beautiful, just like she wanted), or Snape. Why did I have such a big snape faze oh my god. Back to the story, she gave birth to either only Isabelle, Isabelle and her brother or Isabelle and her 3 brothers. She didn't deem the (older) brothers beautiful as much as she fought isabelle was. So she killed her. Almost. She basically ripped all of her skin, including her face. She also kills her husband/lover since he saw that and called her a monster. Because her existence doesn't have prove, and ministry can't let anyone know there's a muderous mythical creature on the loose, it's Isabelles brothers who go to prison. I don't know what happens in the Snape versions, but in without snape versions it turns out that Snape family is the one closest to Isabelle, so she ends up living with him. End of the awfully long backstory)

UGH back to the story. In the prologue, harry has a dream which Erma sent upon him. Basically showing him Mask, how she looks like and manipulating the truth to make Mask seem like a death eater. And overally gruesome person. Harry talks about it at Gryffindor table and Twins overhear. That's the only reason they're included. Life sucks.

Karkarow requests that all Hogwarts students are to be present during Durmstrang and Beauxbatons arrival. So Mask has to leave her room and be present. There Ron sees her face/mask. At the other day, during the breakfast where stuff is annouced. Hermione sees Mask.

Then plot is blurry, and doesn't really matter.

THE END
NOW FOR THE REWRITE MY DUDESS

First, the characters:
Isabelle Deadlock
Now doesn't have stupid dormitory. Just a regular Ravenclaw. Still has scars but no protesis and they're tuned down. Still lives with Snape but he's also tuned down for the story. Instead of rats or snakes. I'm planning on giving her either a Poison Dart Frog or just some bugs. Because bugs.
Small quirks:
— Loves potions, herbology and care of magical creatures
— Stinker for weird things almost just as much as hagrid. Ugly bugs? Gimme. Deadly frogs? Yusss.
— Probably friends with Luna.
— Always carries a small scalpel around. Loves having bugs and frogs just as much as cutting them (not hers tho, don't touch them or you'll probably die)

Merrill Darkwood
Basically a Slytherin who hangs out with Isabelle because he tends to spend time with Snape and that's how they met. Still insecure about both his sexuality and being the only "pureblood" child (his mother can't have anymore children). Slytherins are not such a mess anymore and hes got some supportive quidditch buds.
Small quirks:
— Used to be on Quidditch team as a Seeker, left year before PS
— Loves history of magic and generally minor, underrated and boring things
— Spends most of his time either at potions classroom (because it's quiet and privacy) or at library
— Insecure, pessimistic nerd.
— His father is a Merman. He himself is a Ribbon Eel. (only turns when fully submerged in water, as opposite to full blood Merepeople)

Finnian Sapping
Still a Muggleborn Hufflepuff. Little less self-concious. Albino coming from a poor family currently living in a orphanage because his parents abused drugs. Has a few Hufflepuff friends but know for also befriending a lot of different house students. Mostly notable: Weasley Twins, Isabelle, Merrill and few other Gryffindors and Ravenclaws.
Small quirks:
— Tutors younger housemates on Transfigurations, DADA and sometimes Charms
— Mess with his mates you mess with him (Year 3, Hufflepuff lost 50 points because he hexed a Gryffindor for picking on first year )
— Looks like a cinnamon roll. Acts like a cinnamon roll most of the time. But will stab your eyes out if you mess with him.
— Sometimes gets into shouting arguments with Snape. Usually loses, a lot of points.

Archiebald Foy
Removed. Annihilated. Does. Not. Exist.

PLOT IS WORK IN PROGRESS.
IM TIRED.
WHY IS THIS SO LONG.
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

at least it helped me collect some ideas!

OH GOD MY HANDD

I've seen my life flash before my eyes. I wanted to type in "wow" and typed in wowo and it doesn't seem like that big of a deal but any thought of using OWO unironically or out of conversations with friends is just...terrible

With that being said...

owo i'm gunna stwart aniwmawing swun uwu wiswh me lwuck ovo

That just burned my braincells and is probably not even written right in the uwu language. Like screw me I'm never gonna do that again I feel horrible and want to drown in a sever. My life is ruined. Just by that one sentence.

I MIGHT BE OVERREACTING BUT HONESTLY IM JUST TIRED OKAY

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never mind retreat retreat god i hate my uncle.

He's doing grill (grilling?) and I love spicy stuff but spicy chicken breast just murdered my tongue with one bite it's horrible. God the cheese, will it be worst? It sure smells like death.

I love the cheese, it smells like it's gonna murder me but it only murderes my lips not my tongue. It's okay. Oh god I love spicy stuff but I'm gonna die today because of that.

Me: I'm gonna complement that person. I'm gonna comment here and there because they're underrated and need some love and more views/likes/nada-nada
Also me: *spends like, 10 minutes rewriting two words because COMPLEMENTS ARE HARD OKAY*

I'm trying I promise,,

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Waiting for a new hour to hit so you can get that dp like:

that's it, no punchline, I'm too tired for that. Go watch or read someone else for funny stuff, idk, god my ARM HURTS AGAIN

G o o d M o r n i n g
You little degenerate

I just woke up and remembered that I will have to go google translate help with my uncle to the forest so that we can get some mushrooms. God this summer will be just mushrooms and strawberries. Two things I love but kinda, ugh, I'm way too tired for that.

Okay, I should start working on commisions. Like, finish the last one I'm so tired but I will finish this monstrosoty good lord english is hard...

I just want to listen to SCP articles and pretend that I'm being productive ...

I've read somewhere that people usually make/like characters that are like them or that they can procject onto. While others usally like characters that are their type. And... and I have a problem.

Because I'm reading old stories and like... all of the characters are my type

especially the black slightly chubby girl with huge curly hair, freckles and heterochromia i'm weird I know but

AWFUL DAY. HATE IT.
It's hot, I had to spend time with the part of the family I don't like. I'm all sweaty and gross,,, ugh.

Okay let's list the pros and cons of todays... day!

Cons:
It's 30 degrees wth
It was raining in the morning so there's mud everywhere
I had to spend 3 hours in small room with relatives I hate
I'm sweaty
Didn't write or draw anything
My phone and wifi are both dying.
Tooth hurts
Arm hurts
Black people are still being murdered like it's nothing
Chances are the intolerant political party in my country will win again

Pros:
Started playing pkmn Empyrean once again
Ate 3 ice cream
Made progress with SCP fanfic (as in, plan in my head, shuttup)
Found a great "Creative Process" video for inspiration
My parents voted for a dude that actually cares
Uncle took me and my dog to a swim in a river. Only dog swam though.

That... that's kinda it for now I guess?
God I hate poland. Don't come here, it's... it's not that nice. Please.

OKAY
OKAY
OKAY
OKAY
OKAY

Inspiration just hit me like a bus.
I'm gonna do art. Like. Sketch a lot of stuff from references. Where did it come from? Probably ate too much sugar.
But honestly I don't cae. Just. The sole idea of getting my...feces (it sounds bad censored, scratch that) together is enlightening.

By getting my stuff together I mean finally posting on instagram. Like, fanarts or something. Since lately I've been getting awfully invested in SCP universe and also in Pokemon that it's just, hhhhhhhhh I want to art y'know?

so...

LET'S. DO. ART.

Drawing food is fantastic. Like, I love it. I really really do.

Honestly I started doodling so that this day would be at least a little bit productive. Then I stumbled upon a art reference account on insta, then there was a post about food. So I went to Pinterest, lo and behold I had a whole board dedicated to sweets.

So I started drawing them. No regrets.
Other than the fact I'm hungry.

Good morning my body hurts but I pet the neighbors dog and everything is fine.

Trust me, there's nothing like staying past your tolerable set-by-yourself bedtime because your friend cried about politics. The worst part is I haven't seen her in like, 3/4 months and yesterady really made me want to hug her :<

Okay I'll start drawing again in like an hour or two and that should mark me finishing with commisions.

Okay but... drawing food. Is great. I have like 5 pages of only food and sweets. Feels great man.

I also sketched few general warm-ups practices from my Pinterest boards and g o d black girls and asian girls are great.

*SLAM*my other arm......
COMMISION UPDATE

ALL SENT. I'M A GOD. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP AND PRETEND I DONT EXIST. MY NOSE IS BLEEDING FOR NO REASON GOD HELP US ALL.didn't I just say i'm a god?

okay everything hurts and I'm really tired. So i'd better start mindlessly watching youtube videos as if that's gonna help...

I feel awfully excited for the fact that I've opened up my sprite shop back up. Like, I need the added work.

But sprites for one reason and one reason only: they're quick, easy to make, and if I mess up a bit, they're still free so I didn't disappoint anyone too much.

And I have a schelude I follow because of them: Wake up, rumble check, do sprites, do everything else.
Honestly doing them just warms me up. It's usually goes something like: "ok... no too hard... god that's gonna be Aseprite... that's gonna be painful... YES! A RECOLOR!" because I add too much stuff and then I'm kind of like... oh I... I have to do it again?

BUT IM PROUD NONTHELESS.
Also I want to open my art shop again, it's gonna be a bad idea, but ... but I have to,, yeah I'm doing it now screw me.

Me talking to someone I don't know: Casual, doesn't really care. First impressions? pfff.
Me talking to someone I know, who is nice: hhhhhhhhh thank you,,? No-o don't be upset, you're greatt, oh god I'm sorry please don, don't write to me don't anything I can't what if I mess up?
Me talking to someone I know, whom I hate: >:( generally the same as I don't know but with more >:(

I excel at human interaction.

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Ah yes. The fire starter of Kanto Chrazirad. I love myself and my old grammar. Reading these old ff was a good idea ;)

Me: *just woke up* yeayy, art, send that ref... god my eyes and back... alright I'll start working on it soon...
Me: . . .
Me: . . .
Me: . . .
Also me: I HAVE A SPRITE SHOP OPEN

I had this sudden urge to support people. As in, artists who don't get enough recognition, youtubers with small amouts of views. I have no idea where that came from just randomly my mind went "oh god art and youtube" and now just wait till I follow more than 1k people. The funniest thing is that I don't do follow for follow because it sucks, but I still have almost always even amouts of followers and following.

Also GOD I LOVE DRAWING FOOD AND DESSERTS. I think it's my new way of coping with hunger and other stuff, just like; opening pinterest and doodling food.

Also also (I'm starting to hate this word) I'm thinking of starting posting on instagram (again, used to but stopped) for one and one reason only. It'll motivate me to do art. It... It sounds weird but when I have more to do I do more stuff quicker. Like the sprite shop, I did all the stuff in like, 10-20 minutes? (because resizing and organizing frames sucks) and since I already have reminder that I didn't turn off (basically every 2/3 days to post on a specific hour) I might as well do it.

For now I'll leave it at that, gotta eat dinner and play with my doggo since she's probably awfully lonely without her dog bud.

AYY I'm back.

So back to the topic (english 100) I'm thinking of reviving my Instagram page but for the sake of making it fully fandom related. Either pokemon or scp. I-I know there's a bit of a hole between these two which is my biggest "problem" (??). I mean I can make it work.

Pokemon because my need for fluffy creaters eating Ice Cream, drawing soft ships or just finally coming to terms with drawing my-favourite-character-what-the-heck
lol I just got distracted and decided to check if I can change my insta name to "krenia" ofc I couldn't so I went for Krenia_, and it worked wth
SCP because of my need to draw gore, ANGST and weird creatures *cough**cough*flesh that hates*cough**cough*

Also because SCP doesn't have enough recognition. Like why aren't there more fanarts? Because it's harder to make kinky stuff? not that hard if I can find on pinterest And mainly fanart is for the og ones not exactly the interesting ones. As in, a lot of 049 (my pfp bird boi), 035, Cain and Able (i'm bad with numbers), 106 for some reason, 173 and 096 the old ai 999 and some dr and researchers. That might seem like a lot but there's over 5k scps. Why only like, handful of them gets recognition???????????????????

So yeah, I have both need to draw food with cute creatures or ships, but also for drawing bloody gross stuff.

Fun fact: Once I watched video about 610 (the flesh that hates) on The Exploring Series channel and since he adds photos I was both grossed out and fascinated. Then kinda offended by myself when I pause video to look at really gruesome artwork in detail. Like, I was kinda "ew gross" but also kinda "flesh".

I'm getting really out of hand.

Why is it always so hot and warm?

Like, why?

It's so hard for me to focus and I have sprites to finish.

Hhhhhh

And art...

I want to art....

Trying to be positive, productive, creative and social when you feel like a total garbage is honestly the worst feeling in the world. Like I can write a few lols here and there. I can have a full normal conversation for gods sake! I could go for a nice swim in the river but next thing I know? I want to throw up so badly I can't get up.

Like jesus christ let me work! Let me finish the rp! Let me draw! Let me sprite! Stop feeling like a pile of garbage! KRENIA GET YOUR wordicantsayonpokeheroes TOGETHER!

i'm trying okay