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Posted: Thu, 02/05/2019 05:11 (5 Years ago)
It's... very difficult to explain. But I'll do my best to get it into words here.
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I don't think like the everyday person does. I don't feel the same things. I just don't work right. And while it has never bothered me, and never interfered with anything that I have decided to do, it gets in the way with helping these people I like.
I want to help, to say all the right things and alleviate their worries in a manner that leaves them if not both of us feeling better. But because I don't work right, I cant make the same emotional connections that most people do. I don't feel 'happiness' the same. Or 'sadness' either. I highly doubt that my 'anger' is the same as yours. Everything for me is stretched way out of proportion compared to normal people.
It's been easier to consider myself as something other than human instead of trying to figure out where the dots connect and tie me into the same array as everyone else.
More often than not I'm too insensitive with things, or I overreact way too much. And... I just want to be normal enough to help...
It kills me to know that there's a decent chance that I may lose a friend, or cause someone to hate me simply because I say the wrong things when I simply believe that I'm helping. It stresses me out and puts me in a bad mood which only compounds the previous issues tenfold! I can't get out of this endless loop of screwing up and making things worse and I just want to be free for once so that I can help the people that need it. The people that NEED someone to talk to who can understand their emotions at their level and give advice based off of that...
Posted: Thu, 02/05/2019 05:30 (5 Years ago)
~.~.~
But, on a more serious note, there is no right way that you should function. You are you. You think deeply, and you can connect to others on certain levels. It doesn't mean that you aren't human. I find it better to not be considered "normal," in a way. Normal is boring, and it's those who think differently that can make changes. <3
Just do the best you can. If you can't give advice to someone, the least you can do is truly listen and be there for them. Sometimes all they want is to be heard and know that someone cares about them.
Posted: Thu, 02/05/2019 07:59 (5 Years ago)
Posted: Thu, 02/05/2019 20:58 (5 Years ago)
Posted: Fri, 03/05/2019 01:45 (5 Years ago)
And it's riding all the way
It's not my fault that I can't
Push the urge away
I've saved some lives,
Close your eyes
It's not pretty
The work that must be done
In the mist
Death has kissed
Those beneath me
Even if it's all for fun
I'm the balance between the sides
Bringing bad men to their demise
Someone's got to do it and I'm willing
I'm no hero, but I'm not the villain
I made a choice some time ago
To use this gift solely for good
So don't get the wrong idea
I'm only killing when I should
But look away
If you stay
Here and watch me
It's not for everyone
Listen close
To the code
Binding what I've
Planned out and what I've done
They're the sickness
I'm the cure
In my darkness
I am pure
They're the killers
I'm the chair
While the rest
Are unaware
I'm not the villain
I'm just natural force
I'm fixing problems
Destroy them at the source
With purpose
They deserve this
It's a small price
They don't play nice ♫♪"
The Villain (Dexter Song) - Aviators
Posted: Wed, 08/05/2019 17:31 (5 Years ago)
Help. I cannot stop fanboying over this absolute monster of a man.
Posted: Thu, 09/05/2019 08:30 (5 Years ago)
Never think of consequences.
I didn't feel a thing, I didn't feel a thing.
I never think twice, no intentions.
Never feel the consequences.
Until it starts to sting, until it starts to sting.
No, it never hurt like this before.
No, nothing's fair in love and war.
Turn out, the lights.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
It's too late, to lie.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
Your hand, my knife, your heart, my life.
There's no wrong, or right.
When nothing's fair in love and war.
I never back down, always in crisis.
Left to my own devices.
You never meant a thing, you never meant a thing.
No, it never hurt like this before.
No, nothing's fair in love and war.
Turn out, the lights.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
It's too late, to lie.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
Your hand, my knife, your heart, my life.
There's no wrong, or right.
When nothing's fair in love and war.
Turn out, the lights.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
It's too late, to lie.
Nothing's fair in love and war.
Your hand, my knife, your heart, my life.
There's no wrong, or right.
When nothing's fair in love and war."
Nothing's Fair In Love and War - Three Days Grace
Posted: Fri, 10/05/2019 03:06 (5 Years ago)
I'm surrounded by people,
but there's no one to talk to.
What to do, what to do...
Fish, Garden, Browse the trades?
Nothing to do, nothing to do...
How do I get out of this haze?
Hhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm so very, very bored.
Doing anything feels like a chore.
I don't want to draw, no motivation.
What do I do? So many choices.
But they're all dead-ends...
Blah, I felt like writing, so here's this I guess.
Posted: Mon, 03/06/2019 17:34 (5 Years ago)
I was training on learning how to use magic with my dragon. I had mastered verbal spells but was having a lot of trouble with silent and active spells. (No movement and movement respectively)
Well, apparently, if I mastered the other two kinds, I would be extremely powerful, having an innate talent for using magic in the first place.
Well, eventually I got fed up with trying to learn how to use those forms of magic and turned to making a deal with dark Eldritch creatures to gain the talents I needed... The last thing I remember was laughing like a maniac as this dark green magic crackled around me.
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Another dream I had last night putting in a spoiler because my wierd dream physics might make someone squeamish.
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Fishing at the local marina with ma, her boyfriend, and Scar. Apparently I had accidentally hooked my foot (we weren't wearing shoes) and I just kinda... Pulled out the hook like it was nothing. But the injury wasn't a normal Pierce, oh-ho no. You see in my dreams, nothing is ever normal. This injury casued my foot to start acting like a balloon. Where it had pierced, was the hole where I needed to squeeze the air out of my skin to even be able to walk on it properly. After a while we figure out that it's infected, and that's what was causing it to swell up so often. So I go and clean up the area, slap a band-aid on it and viola, no more weird swelling. Then we all went back to fishing like nothing had ever happened.
Posted: Fri, 19/07/2019 08:24 (5 Years ago)
Deaths by character
Leo
Leo stabbed you.
You found the demon in him.
Leo cut you up
Jaseque
You made him angry.
You wanted more.
Jaseque was too rough.
You bled out.
You were sacrificed.
He hated you.
Lazeren
He burned you.
Sliced and Diced.
You were too kind.
You lost your mind.
He got his happy ending
Survival Endings by character
Leo
You got some scars.
You got away.
You saved him.
You turned the table(saw)!
Jaseque
You protected yourself.
You're his new toy.
Lazeren
You both got a happy ending.
He made you his servant.
You helped him.
He left you.
You got your happy ending.
You escaped.
I have a bit of the 'story' also written, so to speak. But I'll save that for when it's done. I'll definitely be adding more endings too, and there are two more Characters that are in, but don't have any planned endings yet.
Character Colors
Esden - #7a4b8f
Railmont - Black
Leo - #264E9E
Jaseque - #D57500
Lazeren - Maroon
Posted: Wed, 24/07/2019 08:31 (5 Years ago)
At one point, demons simply didn't exist. There were only the humans, and the divine. One human, Asteramsus, had discovered the arcane and used it for all the wrong reasons. He used the magic to gain material matters, used it to kill those who opposed his way, used it to win lovers and status. He became vain and jealous of what others had. Over time the magic corrupted him, altering his body and mind. He became the first demon, and went by the name Zaruhl.
With his new mastery or these arcane arts, he decided it was no life worth living without like-minded friends. He set out to lead others astray, convinced them to give into their temptations and even taught them magic to assist them.
These 7 people where changed as well, each one having a certain mastery, and Zaruhl as a master of all. They became know as The King Of Sin, and his minions, The Seven Deadly Sins.
After some time of just the eight, they began to he challenged. Attack by brave humans who wished to rid the earth of their evil. In order to combat the multitudes of humans, they began to influence some, a few at first, but once their numbers grew, they were tempting hundreds. Fear began to grow, suspicions that Zaruhl and his sins would consume the remains of human kind. So, in order to combat the wicked magics of the Demons, humans began praying to their divine God and Angels for help, for weapons. They got their response in the for of another kind of magic, one that was surprisingly effective against Zaruhl and his legion of demons.
This started a frenzied war, Demons fighting against Humans wielding these Holy Magics. Yet, despite their numbers, it seemed like the humans would win, banishing them with water like acid and blinding light that ripped their darkness to shreds. In an attempt to regroup and reinforce their numbers, Zaruhl used his magic to create a whole new realm for his demons to reside in. A place where no human could follow, without tainting their soul with darkness.
It was quickly found that this could be exploited to the demon's advantage however, and the method developed of simply taking a brief visit to the human realm, having a child, and taking that child back to their realm.
Posted: Sat, 27/07/2019 10:13 (5 Years ago)
+ Sing Pirate Shanties, obviously.
+ Get ALL THE BOOZE
+Get ALL THE BOMBS
*Walking around, singing*
*gets shot at*
"AYE! I BE TRYING TA SING HERE! CANT YE TELL?!?!"
*Thing continues to shoot at me, fight ensues, thing starts running away*
"DO IT YE COWARD! KILL ME! THAT'S RIGHT, KEEP RUNNING! YE SHOULDA NEVER PICKED A FIGHT WITH A PIRATE!"
*Tossing Molotovs at enemies*
"EAT MOLOTOVS YE INSOLENT CURS!"
(More to be added later.)
Posted: Thu, 05/12/2019 19:16 (4 Years ago)
T̷̨̒e̶̩͋s̸̥̃t̸̢̔ị̷̀ṅ̴̠g̴͍̐.̸͉̽ T̴e̷s̵t̴i̶n̵g̷.̴ Is this thing on? . . . Ah! Hello everyone! It is I, PrinceOfDemons. Here to inform you of a lovely new place to talk and chatter to your heart's content!
There will be a new group chat, The Radio Cult!, in the works here lately. You need only ask ErrorTheGamer or I and you can get an invitation into this entertaining little show!
Stay tuned for more information!
Posted: Mon, 09/12/2019 22:23 (4 Years ago)
Welcome to the show! I can promise you that this will be very entertaining!
This is a Cult / Club / Group made for fans of Alastor from the potential* series, Hazbin Hotel.
*Hazbin Hotel has a pilot episode out on YouTube, but there is no second Episode or news of the series continuing for sure. Though the creators are very interested in doing such, funding is an issue at the moment.
Now, you don't need to actively be an active fan of the Radio Demon himself, or Hazbin, but there will be perks if you are! You see, I am planning on holding small contests and competitions for prizes among our ranks. For things such as a handful of PD, all the way up to summon items and shiny pokemon!
These contests may be trivia, recruitment, or merely #-sharing. All easy things to do, and all to generate good morale and interest in our Cult!
Cult Announcements will be made in future posts here, and discussion is welcome! Make sure you stay tuned for events and news by Subscribing! This thread is a place for us to gather, other than the group chat, and to post content that the chat limits! So get out there and have a ball!
This is TheRadioDemon Signing off!
Confirmed Cult Members
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TheRadioDemon - Founder & Chat Admin
ErrorTheGamer - Co-Founder & Chat Admin
~Lucky~
Lupine
Crystalmyst
Contact to Join
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If you would like to join our little Cult, please contact either me, TheRadioDemon, or ErrorTheGamer via palpad or PM. Please include that you would like to join our Cult, and any other special details you would like us to know. Please do not spam us with messages though, as we are both busy people and do not have much free time to be online.
Coming Soon:
♥ Hashtag Sharing Contest ♥
♥ Recruitment Contest ♥
Posted: Fri, 20/12/2019 20:28 (4 Years ago)
So, I'll be hosting a little contest! Two, actually. I've decided to combine the # and recruitment contests. There will be two winners total. Who ever gets the most people to join, and shares the #RadioCult, will be entered to win a grab-bag of goodies from the following items.
Posted: Sun, 09/02/2020 16:55 (4 Years ago)
Making a fursona has helped ground me in ways that I didn't think it would. It's easier finding out who I am by having a character to project onto, that being Scott, the bat.
Almost as soon as I had his design pegged down, I could just, imagine him doing things in my place and it gave me a kind of peace and happiness that I haven't had in a long, long time.
Posted: Mon, 23/11/2020 20:18 (4 Years ago)
Im just keeping this in here now so I can free up a panel on my profile.
Click them to visit the farm
Idaxel - Lu's pet Bleppo
Myriabella - Kynes' pet Bleppo
Rascal - Railmont's only pet Bleppo
Posted: Sat, 13/02/2021 05:27 (3 Years ago)
Easy Hunts
Alolan Ratatta
Alolan Raichu
Alolan Sanshrew
Nidoran (♂♀)
Clefairy
Alolan Vulpix
Dugtrio
Alolan Meoth
Tentacool
Alolan Geodude
Geodude
Alolan Grimer
Alolan Exeggutor
Seaking
Sentret
Qwilfish
Zigzagoon
Wurmple
Lotad
Shellos (West)
Sewaddle
Fletchling
Scatterbug
Furfrou
Phantump
Mareanie (Currently Hunting)
Salandit
Rookidee
Yamper
Applin
Mega-Able Hunts
Bulbasaur
Weedle
Magikarp
Mareep
Houndour
Aron
Shinx
Event Hunts
Obsidanix
Wailmer (Babylonian)
Posted: Sat, 13/02/2021 07:41 (3 Years ago)
This is how I choose to handle my issues... And so I shall. Again and again, a cycle of worse, then better, then worse again...
I am broken. Damaged... And because of that, I cannot keep from causing stress and pain and that causes me stress, guilt and emotional pain that I cannot handle much more of...
This is why I am cutting off social ties. For now, at least...
Posted: Sat, 13/02/2021 22:22 (3 Years ago)
Everyday Trades
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Submarine Volcano (Map)
5x Bottled Message
A secret map that can be used for a Rumble Mission. The area leads to a boiling volcano deep down in the ocean.
Regular Bait
1x Normal Gem 1x Water Gem
A regular bait for fishing. Keeps fish a little bit longer on the hook.
Tasty Bait
1x Magikarp
A tasty bait for fishing. Keeps fish longer on the hook and makes it slightly easier to pull them out of the water.
Delicious Bait
1x Gyarados
A delicious bait for fishing. Keeps fish much longer on the hook and makes it much easier to pull them out of the water.
Shiny Bait
1x Squirtle 1x Totodile 1x Mudkip
A special bait for fishing. Lures three-times more shiny Fish-Pokémon than a usual bait.
Water Stone
5x Shoal Shell 2x Pearl
A peculiar stone that makes certain species of Pokémon evolve. It is a clear, light blue.
Shoal Salt
2x Shoal Shell
Pure salt that was found in the ocean. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
Shoal Shell
2x Shoal Salt
A seashell found in the ocean. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
Magnetic Bait
1x Staryu 1x Tynamo
A metal bait for fishing. Attracts less fish, but increases the chance to catch an item.
Sunday
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Fisherman Hat
1x Relic Crown
The old hat of a legendary fisherman who used to be the best angler in Emera Town. Wearing it strongly improves your fishing skills.
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Mystery Box (Black)
5x Phione 3x Seaking 2x Lumineon
A dark mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a black key.
Big Pearl
5x Pearl
A rather large pearl that has a very nice silvery sheen. It can be sold to the Item Shop for a high price.
Splash Plate
3x Horsea 3x Marill 3x Finneon 1x Inkay
An item to be held by a Pokémon. It's a stone tablet that changes the forme of a special Pokémon.
Monday
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Relic Silver
5x Relic Copper
A silver coin used in a civilization about 3,000 years ago. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
Prism Scale
3x Feebas
A mysterious scale that evolves certain Pokémon. It shines in rainbow colors.
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Mystery Box (Dark Blue)
5x Poliwag
A mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a dark blue key.
Pearl
1x Clamperl
A rather small pearl that has a very nice silvery sheen to it. It can be sold cheaply to the Item Shop.
Rare Candy
1x Squirtle 2x Shoal Salt
A candy that is packed with energy. It raises the level of a single Pokémon by one.
Mega Stone
5x Big Pearl 1x Staryu 1x Lanturn 1x Huntail 1x Gorebyss 1x Clauncher
A stone that seems to be full of mysterious energy. Only very powerful Pokémon can make use of it.
Tuesday
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Relic Gold
2x Relic Silver
A gold coin used in a civilization about 3,000 years ago. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
Mystery Box (Dark Blue)
5x Horsea
A mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a dark blue key.
Big Pearl
5x Pearl
A rather large pearl that has a very nice silvery sheen. It can be sold to the Item Shop for a high price.
Wednesday
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Relic Vase
5x Relic Gold
A vase made in a civilization about 3,000 years ago. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
DeepSeaTooth
3x Clamperl 1x Pearl
An item to be held by Clamperl. A fang that gleams a sharp silver.
Mystery Box (Dark Blue)
5x Marill
A mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a dark blue key.
Rare Candy
1x Totodile 2x Shoal Salt
A candy that is packed with energy. It raises the level of a single Pokémon by one.
Thursday
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Relic Band
2x Relic Vase
A bracelet made in a civilization about 3,000 years ago. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
Prism Scale
3x Feebas
A mysterious scale that evolves certain Pokémon. It shines in rainbow colors.
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Mystery Box (Light Blue)
5x Carvanha
A mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a light blue key.
Big Pearl
5x Pearl
A rather large pearl that has a very nice silvery sheen. It can be sold to the Item Shop for a high price.
Saturday
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Relic Crown
1x Relic Band 1x Relic Statue
A crown made in a civilization about 3,000 years ago. A maniac will buy it for a high price.
DeepSeaScale
3x Clamperl 1x Pearl
An item to be held by Clamperl. A scale that shines a faint pink.
Mystery Box (Light Blue)
5x Staryu
A mysterious Box that may contain some very rare items. It can only be opened with a light blue key.
Rare Candy
1x Mudkip 2x Shoal Salt
A candy that is packed with energy. It raises the level of a single Pokémon by one.