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Well first of... Hi! I'm Mirej! Or Kiko if you want to call me that. Or Svenja if you want my real name.
I know I'm on site this for quite some time now, but now I felt like doing a small introduction of myself. Here some basic facts about me:

Age: 20
Birtday: 7th June
Gender: female (duh!)
Hair: normally dark-blonde, now dyed in bright blonde
Eyes: Blue~
Hobbies:
- Computer Games. I'm a Nerd and obsessed with my computer. And sadly unemployed, so this doesn't really help getting away from it xD
- Books. I love Horror/Thriller books. The more blood, the better.
- My boyfriend :3 (He plays computer games all day long as well >_>)
- Drawing. I love sketching and hate coloring (it takes so painfully long, I'm not very patient when coloring). My favorite motives are dragons and female humans. (Boobs.)

And now to the most important thing about me, and this is not a joke: I have a bipolar-disorder. This means I can be happy and laughing for 2-4 weeks, then feel like suicide and crying for another 2-4 weeks. But since I don't take my meds anymore, it's gotten better, lol. Anyway if you ever have the feeling I'm in a bad mood... stay away from me. I try not to post when having a bad time, but there's never a guarantee. Imagine a hurricane filled with claws and teeth and spitting fire. That's how I am when having a bad time.

I hope you're not too scared of me now :3 Most of the time I'm just a nice girl trying to help others <3

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You have blue eyes <3 you are so lucky XD. I have brown eyes :/ and everybody in pf is probably a nerd (just like i am) XD. Now the bipolar was a shocker i would never in a million years think you were bipolar lol you are just so nice 030.
I like horror as well but im mostly more into ghosts XD.

So you are currently unemployed but my question would be if you would have a job what would your dream job be?


(i hope i could post on here if not im sooo sorry OTL)

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(Of course you can post here :3)

I had a lot of problems finding a job that would suit me, but I love kids, so I guess I'm going to work in a Kindergarten. I could even do a training in the kindergarten I went to when I was a child.
But to be honest: I'm afraid of going to work. My sleeping habits go crazy at the moment again, I slept from 1 am Saturday morning till 10pm Saturday evening... But most of the time I go to bed at midnight, sleep 1-2 hours, be awake for 2 hours, sleep again 1-2 hours and so on... until I go to bed at 6 or 8 am and then finally sleep till 1 pm... I hate that.

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That is a chaotic sleeping schedule. So you have like insomnia :( for me my sleep schedule is like locked i usually sleep around 11pm-12am and wake up at 6am o.o so yeah XD lol and after 6 i can't sleep at all not even a nap so yeah XD i currently work at a company where i input commands into a linux based computer to test chassis, power supply's, and hard drives.

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I wish I could sleep normally :( While taking meds I slept quite normal at night, but had to take a nap around 3pm. My dad has the same problem, although he only has "normal" depressions.
And what adds to my sleeping problems (and probably causes them): My skin is a mess. I have atopic dermatitis/neurodermitis that just comes and goes as it wants. That's why I'm glad whenever I can sleep a few hours straight.

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Wow Mirej i salute to you. I cant imagine what you go through but i hope eventually you will be able to sleep normally 030 and heal from your dermatitis. Just remember to *in a Dory voice* just keep swimming 030 XD

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Just keep swimming O3O Yeah right, my boyfriends helps me a lot going through this... he's very patient with me and takes care of me. It's not easy for him though, being refused by me if my skin hurts too much so he can't even touch me. He kind of had bad luck with me, as I am his very first girlfriend ever and then he got someone like me XD But we're a pair for nearly 2 1/2 years now and happy as ever <3

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But you are very lucky mirej 030 see that is true love my friend 030 never let him go, you will never find someone as good as him 030 there are alot of emotionless, and careless people in the world who could care less of anybody and would treat you horribly. Its good to hear that you found somebody that is AMAZING 030 Best wishes to both of ya.

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Thank you so much for these kind words <3 Of course I will never let him go. I would break apart if I did. We're thinking of getting our own flat in near future as he finished his training as a carpenter and now got a full job. But he demands that I get a job too if I want to live with him :/ He can be pretty mean sometimes <3
Oh well anyway, I'm gonna do this! Somehow.

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Its ok it will work out 030 it always does just dont give up 030 love can conquer anything 030

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