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Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 01/07/2018 01:23 (6 Years ago)
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Nepetu_Leijon
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Posted: Sun, 12/03/2017 19:02 (7 Years ago)

So, I'm finally quitting.

Who woulda thought that after 4 years, I'd finally decide to do it right?

Been having a feeling I was gonna do it eventually, officially anyways. Kinda unofficially quit with all my inactivity to be honest.

I ain't into the website anymore is all, I suppose? It kept my interest a lot longer than I anticipated though. Legit one of the only things that had me return constantly for a while there.

I love this site. I'm not gonna lie. This site is amazing; has it's ups and downs, but literally every site does. I just... no longer really have a need to stay? I've... matured outta it, in a way.

That's really all it is. I'm not into it; I've matured and grown out of this website. Not by age or anything like that. I'll never grow up due to age probably lmao. I suppose it's a different kind of maturity. Emotional and mental I guess?

I came to this website at a time where nothing felt good. Nothing was going right. I just wanted to get lost in things, and websites like Pokeheroes were my escape. Pokemon was a big interest of mine; couldn't play it at the time, but I loved it anyways. So I joined Pokefarm. Got bored, and went to find a new one. Found Pokeheroes.

And honestly? I didn't expect this website to change me in the way it did. I didn't expect it to be anything more than something to keep me entertained. And at first, that's all it was. It was entertainment.

Then it grew. It became something more. I got attached to people, and I made friends; and in all, at the time, 13 years of my life, I had never managed that before. I never managed to open up and speak to people. More than 2 anyways. On here... I made so many friends. The experience was overwhelming.

I never knew how friendship really felt before I came here. I didn't... really know much of anything before I came here. This website helped me realize a lot about myself. This website was a catalyst for so many changes in my life. Without this website, I seriously doubt I'd be where I am today.

When I joined Pokeheroes, I was a lonely kid. I was abnormal and afraid of it. I was depressed and had no idea what my emotions were; I was scared, and I didn't want to exist. I didn't think I could get help, I didn't want it and I didn't think I deserved it.

But this website changed that. In the nearly 4 years I've been on it, it's led to so many changes with me. Without the people here, I would've never become a friendlier person, and I never would've found the interests that allowed me to do so.

Without the support and care from the friends I made on here, I never would've left my mindset of 'I don't matter. My existence doesn't matter. I don't deserve help'. Without them, I wouldn't be on the road of recovering from it, and on the road to finally treating myself better and becoming a healthy person.

Without my friends and the community, I wouldn't have reached out. I wouldn't have had people to talk to or vent to. I might not be here today if it weren't for this website. I wouldn't have reached out to my dad, I wouldn't have gotten a therapist and gotten antidepressants. I wouldn't be on the way to try and become a more functional being.

Without this website, I wouldn't be becoming the best me I can try to be.

I started off as a stand-offish individual, one who hides everything behind humor. A person who never wanted to share what was bugging them, one who was always lonely and didn't feel like they could connect to a dang soul on this planet. One who didn't think they deserved to be here anyways, and took so much pain from others; one who was constantly used.

Now, with the help from people on this website and the path this website set me on, I've become a more friendly individual. I've finally been able to reach out and connect to people. this last year has been one where I've finally become what I never expected. I still hide behind humor, but now I can at least reach out if my humor no longer works. I'm not so lonely anymore. I still sometimes don't feel like I deserve to be here, and still take pain. But now, I can fight those feelings off with the words my friends have said to me.

I'm no longer stepped on, I'm no longer being used. I allow myself to do the things I did for others; I no longer just do it out of fear, I do it out of genuine care for others.

Heck, even the bad parts led to a positive change for me. A lot of the bad parts led to new friends, and those new friends led to new memories I will always hold dear.

Without this website, I don't think I'd be the type of person I am now; I truly don't. I can't imagine what would've happened by now. What type of person I might've been. Would I have learned what my sexuality is? What I'm into? How I can connect to others? Would I have found my passion without this website? This website is what allowed me to rediscover the things I love to do and want to do for the rest of my life.

I owe this website so much. It's an odd feeling to finally say goodbye. I've just grown away from this place; I love it and the people who I've befriended, I love them with all my heart.

But, I can't stay. I just... the attraction and the need I had when I was in a worse place is gone now. I feel an odd sense of freedom.

It's just time to say goodbye. It's time to part ways with the website. Not the people with it, no; I'll still communicate with my friends of course. That would be a jerk move, cutting them off. Wouldn't want that, I love them and wanna talk to 'em.

I just wanted to say this so people can see how important this website is sometimes. How important it was to me. You might not care for it, but I wrote this more-so for me and my friends. I wanted to remember why this website means so much. And I want them to know how they changed me, and how they shaped me.

A few stand out, and I'd like you all to see their names and know how they changed me. My goodbyes to them, for now. If they can't talk to me if I leave this website, as they have no ways to communicate with me; then this is a final goodbye to them.

To KrazyKarp, Giygas, Hoodie, Cynda, and all the friends who I made at the start, many of whom no longer visit this site: thank you for the push. Thank you for being my first friends, and for being there. Thank you for not forgetting who I was, even when I was constantly changing names and forgetting to speak to you guys.

Karp, you're such a awesome dude. Wish we could've chatted more. Never forget the Pizzacos! :]

Same to you Hoodie; didn't always see eye-to-eye with you, but you were one of the key people who changed me. You lead me to making many friends.

Giygas, my fellow constant-name-changing brother, you've always been there really. If I never speak to you again, I want you to know how much I care for you; you're like actual family to me man.

Cynda, you're one of the most loveable people I ever met. You never fail to make me smile. Especially since you share my love in corny things lmao.

To Furret, another one of my long-time pals: you're a popular loser. But you're an amazing one. Joking and talking to you is always a treat. You helped me stay busy during times were bad thoughts were coming in, even if you didn't realize it 'cause I never really let you know that. Never let anyone know. Talking to you about issues helped me calm down a lot, and I hope I did the same whenever you talked to me about your own. I'm glad I met you, you giant noob.

To Rini, the person who I'll always protect with my trusty stick: Rinrin, you're an amazing person. I stopped talking to you, and I regret that. I wish I didn't get so busy that we fell out of touch. Honestly? Had the biggest gayest crush on you. Probably still do. You rock so much, and I like how you speak your mind but can also make it silly.

To Reapu, the trash deino: another person I have a big gay crush on tbh. You're such a cute dork. Glad I met you, especially with a lot of the shenanigans we got into. Those Chatzy shenanigans were great, one of the most fun experiences I ever had. Giving gifts to you was something I enjoyed a lot, loved showering you with what I could. Love you in general in all honesty. Just wanted that to be out there.

To Rascal, a fellow memer: Mate, you're hilarious. Always manage to get a chuckle out of me whenever we actually chat. My fellow salt friend. Thanks for the memes and jokes dude.

To Kit, a melted chocolate bar: mate, you're such a nerd and an amazing artist [all my friends are who am I kidding]. Your humor rubbed off so much on me, pretty much adopted it. It's mine now, you're not getting your humor back. Thanks for always giving a heck of a laugh, you meme.

To Amour, my chilb: how can someone be so cute. It should be illegal. The good and pure and cute of you should be completely and totally illegal, like call 911 this is a crime. You're such a loveable person. I'm so glad we finally talked to each other like honestly? Was always too shy to talk to you. I'm glad we managed to get past that wall and become friends.

To Bettalong, my fish friend: another loveable and pure being. Illegally so. My friends need to stoooop. I still wish we could've chatted more, chatting with you was always amazing and fun. You're a great person, a beautiful cinnamon roll to good for this world.

To Glaffyn, another cool person: I talked way too little with you! This will always haunt me. I don't know much of you, we didn't really talk enough especially in recent times. All I know is you're, like, one of the best people ever. Like seriously. Keep being you man.

To Squir, my eternal homestuck pal: I unfortunately don't talk to you as much as I'd like Squir, but gosh are you a great person. Adorable as heck. 1000% better at everything than me lmao. Hope you're doing amazing, we should try to talk more!

To Piggy, pretty much my closest friend: gal, you rock my world. Like Giy, you're like a sibling to me. I haven't talked to you a lot recently, and you know the reasons; but I want you to know that you are literally one of the best things to come out of this website, and a friend I'm glad I stayed in contact with especially after you had quit for a bit. Watching you change and being there with you has been amazing. Thank you for being there for me constantly, even when you couldn't do much to help. Just venting to you had helped me so much. Just letting it out. I hope our friendship becomes lifelong, that we never fall out of touch with each other.

To Eri, a true prince: your love of lizards rubbed off on me, curse you. Another one of my silly friends, one that made me giggle constantly. Another one who I didn't talk to a lot in recent times [notice a trend? hint, it's that I suck with consistent communication haha...], but always had in my thoughts. Sometimes some thing you said would pop up in my head and my day would just get brighter. Love you fam.

To Yoretula, my SC buddy: honestly?? Finding out someone so close to where I live was on the same website was wild. Never thought that woud happen, especially in this area! Having someone to talk to about SC stuff and stuff about this area was exciting, and still is. I could say something that others might not understand, but you would b/c I can gurantee it was probably related to some weird story relating to this area lmao.

And so, so many more. I don't know if I can name them all. I forgot a lot of names, unfortunately. And a lot of them might not consider me friends with them anymore, in all honesty! I never talked to them enough, and we drifted apart. So here are honorable mentions, from the top of my head: Chococat, Joe, CarpetMonster, Flaafy, Tina... Everyone else I've talked to and enjoyed and considered friend for a time. You all changed me in some way, even if you don't think so. I forget the names, I usually do, but the effect you had on me is one I'll never forget. And I hope that I left that effect, in some way, on many of you. A positive one at least.

This place gave me an irreplaceable family, an unforgettable family. This place gave me irreplaceable memories, ones that will be with me for the rest of my life most likely.

I'll never forget this place. I'll always hold fond memories of it. And I will miss it.

But as I said.

It's time to say goodbye.

"Saying goodbye doesn't mean you are no more my friend,

Saying goodbye doesn't mean our relationship is dead.

Saying goodbye doesn't mean it is forever,

Saying goodbye doesn't mean that it is the end.

Saying goodbye simply means that I will really miss you,

Till the time comes when the two of us meet up again."

- Unknown

Thank you for everything, everyone.

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Nepetu_Leijon
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Posted: Sat, 22/10/2016 19:46 (8 Years ago)

Week of 10-16-16 to 10-22-16

The week was mostly boring up until Friday, to be honest? It was your standard week, as far as standard goes for me lmao.

Learned that we prolly won't make up any of the days we lost during Hurricane Matthew, but we gotta work overtime in response to make up all the work we couldn't do. Lotsa tests and projects coming up I suppose?

Continued doin' Doodle for Google, since that's what I'm doing in my major. Need to finish that some time this weekend,,, [lmao i'm prolly not gonna bUT ANYWAYS]

Friday though, was great. Other than the fact I had to wake up at like... 5:15 in the morning. That wasn't fun. It was foggy as heck in the morning too.

Why'd I have to wake up at 5:15 in the morning, you may ask. I had to be at school by 6:45 and I'm slow as heck getting ready lMAO. Anyway we reach the school, and get on some of these fancy buses. We being my major class and three others. By fancy buses, I mean the kind that have like, T.V.s for movies, Wi-Fi, comfy seats with cup-holders and arm rests, and like curtains for the windows.

Traveled for three hours, only stopping once. Found some poor lady's phone she left, rip. She came back for it though, so un-rip. Anyways, after that stop we ended up at a college in Columbia called USC. Went on a lil' tour through the media art place. It was awesome; and apparently like, one of the only colleges in SC with video game design. Guess who isn't staying in SC for college? [hint: it's me]. Apparently they're gonna have a virtual reality room, so that's neat as heck.

After that, we went to Russel House to eat. Got me some Taco Bell, so score. Ate with my friends, left to get something down on a different floor of the Russel House [taco bell was on the 2nd floor]. I planned on going back up to my friends,,, but I forgot to ahaha oops. My friends thought I somehow got lost when we all met up again to get on the bus lmao. Had some weird convo's, which if they weren't like rated R I'd share but guess what they were rated R so n o p e.

After that, we went to the State Fair. Stopped at the art show first, since everyone submitted somethin'. I didn't get in [cries] but the majority of my friends did [even the dude who submitted a plum,,, a friggin picture of a plum]. Spent the whole day riding rides, mainly ones that went upside down. My mind screamed 'yes' but my body screamed 'no' at the end of it all.

All the rides,,, I raised out of my seat. I think if there weren't bars and if I didn't have a death grip on them I woulda been sent f l y i n g. And one of the dudes who I was riding with [went with a group of kids from my major] screamed 'IT'S HIGH NOON' at one point. He told us that his safety bar un-clicked or whatever those rollarcoaster things do, and that it was while we were upside down and he was like 'well if im gonna die im gonna die being a nerd'.

Tried to win a prize and failed. AND LOST A DOLLAR WHILE DOING ONE. I GOT ROBBED. Cries. Got to pet a bunny and watch ducks go down a slide though. And go on a gondola. Also, one of the other dudes i was hanging with got a free funnel cake. He only ordered soda, but the dude gave him a funnel cake as well and the dude tried to deny it but the vendor insisted and the dude just said 'well alright' and took it. One of my friends pointed out 'you probably just stole someone's funnel cake' and the dude said 'oh well not my fault the vendor wouldn't listen, still a free funnel cake'.

Then we all left, headed home. I pretty much crashed when I came home. The bus rides were boring af, only playing movies that I didn't even like :,].

But yeah that was my week in a nutshell! Prolly long winded and stuff but w/e I like to ramble anyhow.

I'll prolly post weekly? Prolly. Anyways bye.

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Nepetu_Leijon
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Posted: Tue, 11/10/2016 21:12 (8 Years ago)

Just a lil' diary to describe who I am and talk about my days/my current goals. Probably also gonna have things like my opinion on current events, videos, memes and all that. Not a really serious thing, I suppose? Just thought it would be fun and cool, ya know? Guess I'm done with this intro thing.

About me
Name: Spacey/Sul

Previous usernames: Sekky, Adeptus, centaursCatnip, Nepetu_Leijon, NepetuLeijon, Pouncellor_Nepeta, Sanstheprankster, Treat

Age: 16

Likes: Anything about games [playing, watching, designing], stories, all kinds of music [except country, sorry country music], animals [mainly cats!], awful puns, comfy clothes, spicy food, sour candy, fantasy, comedy, mythology, psychology

Dislikes: Bugs, the dark, awful people, jokes that are racist, people crunching ice loudly, the color orange, and candies that are too sweet, swimming, horror, gore, math, homework

Favorite book series: Warrior Cats, Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Ranger's Apprentice, all of Brandon Sanderson's books

Favorite T.V. shows: I don't watch a lot of T.V shows. I guess Criminal Minds, Psych, Saturday Night Live, and most things on TruTV

Favorite Cartoons/Animations [includes online ones]: Steven Universe, Teen Titans, RWBY, Pokemon Generations, Pokemon Origins, Welcome to Hell, and some other ones that I need to go remember >w>

Favorite Bands/Singers: Twenty One Pilots, Fall Out Boy, Modest Mouse, Panic! at the Disco, Fitz and the Tantrums, Cold War Kids, Weathers

Favorite Games: Pokemon, Mario, Spyro the Dragon, Dragon Age, Tomb Raider, Bomberman 64, Star Fox, Smite

Favorite Comics: Homestuck, Sandra and Woo, Housepets, Hackbent: Beginning of the End, various others

I guess that's all for now? I'll update this eventually. I dunno when I'll start actually making posts, probably when I get back to school and have people to talk to lol

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Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Mon, 30/05/2016 02:23 (8 Years ago)
	@Cyanasuras Your icon is done! ~~never drew totodile before, sorry if it's not so good~~ [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 29/05/2016 18:30 (8 Years ago)
	a customer? old man voice it's been 84 years,,, accepted! [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sat, 30/01/2016 21:01 (8 Years ago)
	Took me like a week but finally I got it done @ Sylvia ~~didn't have time most of this week whoops~~ Anyways here: [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Wed, 20/01/2016 01:17 (8 Years ago)
	~~sylv pls u skrub lord~~ okie dokie you're accepted sylv @Dou, you already know yours is done lol @Reapu Yours is done! Here it is: [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Mon, 18/01/2016 23:10 (8 Years ago)
	~~wow reapu thanks for ignoring the forum u skrub~~ Both are accepted! [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon
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Posted: Mon, 18/01/2016 21:38 (8 Years ago)

current status: OPEN

Hello! I've been bored and wanted to improve my art some, so I've decided to open an art shop! [again lol]. This forum won't look the neatest, I've never been great when it comes to making pretty posts.

RULES/GENERAL

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1. Please don't rush me, if I feel rushed the drawing won't come out as well as it could come out

2. When it come's to ordering, you can only order two things per post. This is to give other's a chance to order if they wish to order something. You must do two forms if you are ordering two things.

3. Be respectful to me and to others on here. This one is just out of common sense, treat others how you want to be treated.

4. If I mess something up, please send me a palpad or private message, don't post on this forum. This is to keep this from getting a lot of useless comments. I'll fix it either way, but I'd really prefer if you did it on a palpad or private message.

5. I will only upload images to two places [dA and Tumblr]. You can choose either one or both, but I refuse to post them anywhere else. This is just due to personal preference.

6. If you aren't very happy with what you got, you will be allowed to pay less or nothing at all. This is for improvement, and if you feel like it isn't good then I don't expect to be paid for it.

7. I will not do anything that involves things that are not appropriate for children. I am a minor, plus the fact I have no idea how to draw any of that.

Banned: None
Warned: None

ORDERING

Now, when it comes to what you can order, it doesn't really matter what it is. I'll draw pretty much anything. It will look cartoony, as that is just how I draw, so please don't ask for something to look very realistic. It won't end well. I can't do gif's yet, so don't ask for those either. The size's can be anything, except for icon which will remain 150x150 or lower.

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Icons: Icon's can be pretty much anything except gifs [as stated above]. These are cheap, and will only cost 750 PD no matter what. Be warned that I excel at some things and others aren't so good.

Outline: If you just want an outline of a character, I'll be willing to do it. These will range from 500 PD to 750 PD, as it depends on the complexity of the outline [details, full body or half body, etc.]. Transparent by default, you can ask for a white background.

Color: If you want me to do a drawing with color, it follows the same rules as the outline. It'll cost more though, from 1000 PD to 1500 PD. Transparent version.

Color w/ background: Same as color, but with a background. Depending on the complexity of the background, the cost will range from 1050 PD to 1650 PD.

Misc.: This is for anything that doesn't fit the categories above. The cost will depend on how much I believe it is worth [as a base] and how happy you are with it.

EXAMPLES

Here are some examples of what I can do/ what I have done recently.

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[icon]

[color w/ background]

[icon]

[misc]

[color]

I currently do not have any examples of outline.

FORM

This is how the form looks:

Username: [what your username is]
What you want: [icon/misc., etc.]
Reference/details: [if you have a reference it would be great, if not just give me as much details as you can]
Willing to pay: [how much are you willing to pay for it?]
Extra: [any other information i should know?]

Example:

Username: Sans_the_prankster
What you want: icon
Reference/details: A green snake shooting lazers and fighting a purple alligator
Willing to pay: 750 PD
Extra: Can the background be transparent?

I'll make a post with your drawing when it is done, so please keep a look out! I'll remind you after 3 days if you don't come for it.

SLOTS

1. Cyanasuras
2. OPEN
3. OPEN
4. OPEN
5. OPEN

This will be edited as I get more used to this!

Order to your hearts content!

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Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 17/01/2016 01:16 (8 Years ago)
	994 lol [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon
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Posted: Wed, 30/12/2015 07:16 (8 Years ago)

it is a good idea, but not an idea that would work with this website i don't think. try requesting something like this on a bigger website; this is not a big website, even though it might seem like it.

plus, as stated before, you could simply donate straight to the chairty yourself; you could also simply find charities like that and ask people to donate to those.

i just do not think this idea fits for this type of website, especially since it is not a big one like other websites.

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Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Fri, 17/07/2015 14:49 (9 Years ago)
	- Yeesh. Well im just gonna say until i get home that Ollie got picked up by his mom and he'll come back when i get back - [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Fri, 17/07/2015 14:33 (9 Years ago)
	- Guys c h i l l. Recap? - [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 05/07/2015 03:24 (9 Years ago)
	- Ollie needs a mentor for later for when he becomes a apprentice since Foxstep(?) is dead. And I got nothin to do right now lmao - [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sat, 04/07/2015 13:43 (9 Years ago)
	- Wait so who's going to be Ollie's mentor when he gets there lmao - [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 28/06/2015 20:49 (9 Years ago)
	"A tour sounds interesting..."Ollie mewled softly, glancing around again,"This place is huge..." [Read more]

Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 28/06/2015 16:02 (9 Years ago)
	- Sure Shadedfur sure - Ollie let out a quiet squeak when Rosepetal spoke, turning his head to glance at her,"'m just exploring... I don't like sitting around." [Read more]

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Posted: Sun, 28/06/2015 15:14 (9 Years ago)

-Shadedfur is different around Ollie and I find it funny just wanted to comment that -

Ollie carefully headed over to the entrance when he saw Wolfpaw wander out it, but retreated when he didn't spot her again.'That was... Strange. Very, very strange.'His ear twitched, going back to exploring the camp.'Don't wanna poke my head anywhere... Dunno what or who is in these... Dens? Yeah, dens.'

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Nepetu_Leijon OFFLINE Forum Posts: 48	Posted: Sun, 28/06/2015 02:24 (9 Years ago)
	Ollie carefully left the nursery, glancing around curiously and warily,'Might as well explore while I'm here, right? Gives me something to do... Sitting around is boring.'he glanced around,'Where to explore...' [Read more]

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