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OK, if you are seeing this, you probably think that 'heartbreak' is like rejection or something. For me, NOPE. This version of heartbreak (for me) is when my closest group of friends just FORGOT me. They denied my existence, ignored me when we bumped into each other, etc. It HURTS, you know? And what made it worse is that my best friends (these 3 girls) all turned against me. They started it all. They made me hurt the most. And what made it even worse is that I have nobody else to go to. No other friends accept me for who I am. (There is this one friend that accepts me, but she has her own group of friends who hate me.) This diary will be about how I'm dealing with it, how I'm mentally dying, how I'm physically dying, and how I sometimes cry myself to sleep.

I will post around once a week, to update how I'm dealing with all of this. I hope that you stick around since I have no other best friends or friends. Thank you.
*~Huggle me? It'll make me feel better that some people actually care about me and is willing to take some time away to give me a virtual hug.~*

(P.S. I made my signature quote after this one moment of my life happening right now. What do you think?)

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I'm so sorry. It happened to me last year, but only with one friend. I can't even begin to imagine how terrible it feels. My version felt like bits of terrible adrenaline in my heart, but for you, it's probably five times worse. Betrayal is always the worst. :(

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I know right? I'm planning on leaving the friend group entirely soon. I have this whole long text message planned, but I appreciate it. ♥

UPDATE:

I'm going to leave the friend group. I've had enough of it: being ignored and completely isolated and lonely, I'm fed up. They don't deserve to be my friends (except for a couple of them), and I'm just done with it. It hurts, I cry myself to sleep a lot, and they are not making school any better. It's so bad now that I just got abandoned by one of my closest friends when she went and just ditched me to look at a STU** F***ING SCREEN. It hurt so much, and she didn't even notice that I left. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of everything; my grades, my social life, my home life. Did I mention how I HATE my home life? My siblings constantly hate me over and over again, my dad embarrassed me so badly, and my mom just flat-out yells at me. (No, it's not Child Abuse- DON'T CALL THE COPS OR SUCH).
~ I know it's advertising, but I always feel happier with Huggles. Huggle me? ~

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Hi again~

Help me...
There's a school dance...
I don't have to go, but if I go, I have to go to In-N-Out...
I hate In-N-Out

What should I do? I don't want to face my ex-friends, and I don't like dancing. But if I don't go, then I have to eat In-N-Out, which is the WORST in my area. HElp!

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I'm crying right now. I went to the school dance, but that was when I realized how lonely I was. Most of my ex-friends didn't come, my closer friends didn't come, and the ex-friends that came completely ignored me. When I got home, I was crying because I had no fun and I just stood around (while being lonely). 😭

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Awwww, nooo! *hugs* I will be your friend, promise! I’ll never ignore you or turn against. I’ll be your best friend :D

Aww, thanks!

MORE UPDATE:

Turns out, not only did I lose my real-life besties, but I also lost my previous band director...

He was the best band director I've ever known, yet now, RIP. He was encouraging, kind, and always did his best to help us and keep us going in our musical education. He came to every one of our concerts, even when he wasn't feeling well. He did his best to encourage us, inspire us, and help us become better musicians. He was always there for us, and he is with us now. Not only did he inspire us, but he also inspired those around him, even the ones that didn't do band! He taught us all to be better musicians, better people, and a better community. He started us off in our musical career, but now, he can't see us achieve and become successful, thanks to him. We all miss him so much, especially those who were close to him. It is a hard moment for us all, and we all wish that he was still with us. But we all love him, even if he isn't around anymore. So I wish that we all do no matter what for him, knowing that he watches over us, protects us, and encourages us to keep on going when we feel that we can't.

This is a message for all of us - We can do anything, as our loved ones watch us, even when they are gone or when they aren't around anymore. They watch us, protect us, encourage us. Making sure that we persevere, keep on going to achieve our dreams and goals. I wish that all of you wonderful people on PokeHeroes, out there, all know that your loved ones will always watch you and encourage you to keep on going.

If life seems hard, think of this:
"For Mr. Blake!" (He's the band director I was just praising.) He was a great example for us, and will live forever happily in our hearts. Thank you all for reading this, I'm sure that he and his wife will appreciate it.

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This
is
it.

I am DONE with them.
What good have they done me?
Torture?
Suffering?
Pain?

Having real-life friends can be a real bummer, you know?

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im confuzzled.


One of the ex-friends that just totally ditched me invited to her birthday party! I feel like her mom told her to invite me, or maybe her younger sister... Have any ideas?

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