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YES, YOU CAN POST HERE, AND PLEASE DO! Hi. I now understand time. And how much time time has existed for. No that's not a typo.

Also I understand human behavior and can easily manipulate it.

Oh yes and I do beleive when I get older I will be able to predict the stock market. I'm kind of starting to.

Also to wield such knowledge and yet never be taken seriously kind of affects you. Well, me. So I've made this a series of my discoveries explained, along with the mental tolls.

Also, to give you an idea of how ahead of my age I am, (remember, I'm predicting the stock market, people)
I'm 10 years old. Epic right?

I think I sound dumb right now...

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Title: Human Behavior's mental tolls

Right now, depending on your personality:

If you're bubbly, you're likely intrigued

If you're sharp, you're likely annoyed and not taking me seriously.

Just some examples of predicting human behavior ⬆
Also, my friends sicken me. They're supposed to be there for me and yet, as most humans, are really not very interested in helping me rather than helping themselves. The closer the friend, the more they disgust me with their drama and self-centered-ness (idek XD)

More later! Thanks for reading all of this! <3 PP/PM me if u wanna chat!

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Title: Regular Diary entry

M E H.
Today was kinda weird. I stole my friends bag as a joke ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) and nobody could get it back until 3 people teamed up-
-but rewind- this girl I usually BOW DOWN to told me sternly to give it back and that I'm not funny. (Obvi, she wasn't part of the inside joke) and anyway, I didn't. And I was SO much stronger than her. And in that moment I felt so powerful. Like I was independent. Like no one could stop me and my life was in MY OWN hands, for once. Based on my knowledge, that's a feeling of pride in defiance- knowing this was your choice and no one told you to do this, and no one could stop you. I didn't CARE what she thought for once- and THAT made all the difference. It just felt like I was basically saying- "I no longer BOW to you. I'm no longer a peasant in your royal court. This time, you are simply a PAWN in MY playing field". Maybe it's an exageration over something so small. But I felt independent for that one second-for one second I wasn't dancing on someone's strings. I was weilding the strings. Because I see now- how much of my life is MY OWN. I CAN CHOOSE MY PATH.

So yes. That is todays glory. And that girl is a ph user and if she sees this-
yk what? IDC IF SHE DOES.
Man, that feels good!

Life philosophy:" Today, I do not walk in the footsteps of another. Today, I see those woods, off from the path, and I walk them if I wish to"

OOH that's a good one that I made up on the spot. I'm writing that down.
PeAcE-

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Title: Regular Diary Entry

I basically ghosted my friend the entire day and didn't really talk to her much, and it was kind of- what's the word-rewarding. She basically spent the entire day trying to please me- and I've never had THAT much attention before. She was giving me chips and everything. Hey, it's cruel, but when you're used to being left in the dust, a day of the spotlight is rewarding and worth it. The girl I ghosted is a ph user- and likely reading this so :/ I wonder how she'll react.

Extension: It's not really her who leaves me in the dust. 😔 I joined a new soccer team- which I was a part of before- and it's really hard fitting in. I think they're gossiping behind my back abt me and I think they think I'm weird. AND I'm the WORST and CLUMSIEST player, which really doesn't help. (topic switch) And her friends- idek what's their deal. They gave her a "I'm a bad influence" lecture abt me, AND DIDN'T CARE AT ALL when I CHOKED AND GOT COVID, and then they feel that they're GREAT friends and priveledged to call me their "bessatizee"(their way of saying bff). Like, WTF!?? And I have BIPOLAR AND NOBODY CARES. AND WHEN ME AND THAT GIRL(the ph user) HAVE A HUGE FIGHT AND I CONSIDER GETTING SOME NEW FRIENDS, she just says it's a small fight. So I decided FOR ONE DAY that I'd get back at her and GHOST her just to show her NOT TO TAKE ME FOR GRANTED. So I've decided to ghost her- possibly for all of eternity-until she stops taking me for granted. And the girl I was hanging out with? In the PH user's diary, she said I was leaving HER in the dust by hanging our with HER friends. DUDE. I HUNG OUT WITH THAT ONE GIRL, WHO SHE NEVER TALKS TO, and she even calls that girl her friend? I bet if I was her SERVANT she would call us "friends". >:((((

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Title: Regular Diary Entry

Mmm-
I stopped ghosting y friend and me and the toxic girl made up. But the entire day the friend I ghosted was being super nice and paying alot of attention to me. She was mad at the toxic girl too. Buttt now that everythings made up they're gonna be bffs and pay no attention to anyone else and forget abt me. I'll see how things go, but I'm probably gonna go look for a new bff :/

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Title: Being annoyed

Theres this person at my school. ANNOYING. SO ANNOYING. They think they're "emo" and that makes them "cool" or whatever, but I kinda feel bad for them... because they're SO FAKE! It's so annoying to be lied to, and then, they complain to the teachers that I'm avoiding them (because they're a major pain in the -a-word- and generally annoying) and then they avoid me XD then a teacher tells them to stop and they don't so THAT'S going to be alot of trouble for them.
(It's mar, if u kow who I mean)

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Title: Hey its me, Tired of being someone I'm not

I...
Today...
Just...
I want to take a step back and pretty cry for a second.
Basically:
I'M TIRED OF BEING SOMEONE I'M NOT. I'M TIRED OF NOBODY UNDERSTANDING ME. I HATE MYSELF. I'M LAZY. I SOMEHOW AT TIMES HATE MY FRIENDS FRIENDS(no thats not a typo). IM TIRED OF GOING WITH EVERYTHING THESE 2 PEOPLE SAY EVN IF I THINK ITS STUPID. I'm new to this school. I want my old school when I knew evrything there. All my classmates are stupid and immature. I'm way ahead of my class but only don't get straight 100% because I'm careless. I WNAT TO BE MYSELF AND YET I DON'T KNOW WHO I WANT TO BE. WHO AM I?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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I kind of get annoyed when this girl does everything i say and kinda goes extreme on the "pog-ness". She's gonna get mad when she sees this and then guilt me. And my new soccer team obvi hates me.

Life's just great
*Sighs and rubs forehead*

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Title: I'm insane

No, not delusional insane or stuff like that
As in I am crazy-
As in I am never comfortable with anyone EXCEPT my BFF, Trisha, and occasionally my family
My truest personality is manipulative and scheming.
Oh and one more thing
About all of my emotions-
FAKE
yeah, fake emotions cuz I can't feel anymore, except "feelings", like I can be exited for 5 minutes at a time or so. That's pretty much the extent of my emotions
And I always wonder if I do things to get attention (when I dont even consciously try to).

I'm insane. Oh yeah and probably depressed-

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