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Beep boop... Hi!
This is just a logbook of mine where I record (relatively uninteresting) stuff.

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testing 1 2 3 testing

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I went fishing down at the beach today...
Catches:
1 Frillish
1 Magikarp
1 Poliwag
2 Seaking
1 Chinchou
1 WaterStone
1 Mantyke
1 Frillish
3 Bruxish
1 Goldeen
1 Tentacool
1 Wishiwashi
1 Azurill

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I also finally my pokeradar, and so now I'm currently trying to shiny hunt magikarp but I'm kind of worried that I might run out of PD to pay my fees, but well, never mind :P

Title: Intro:

Ok, so since I decided to start a logbook, I might as well introduce myself real quick (even though I have no idea how to...)

Name: Tru/Trua
Real name: I'm an anonymous nameless being.
Age: 13
Gender: she/her
Favorite Animal: Orca
Favorite Pokemon: Kyogre, Piplup
Favorite Games: Pokeheroes, FlightRising, Torn
Birthday: Jan 24

I'm just a random humanoid on the street, I like doodling and stuff (even though I'm not good at it). I'm not a really interesting person (my former friends have claimed that I'm 'entertaining', but well, people change and stuff, so I'm probably not anymore) but I'm fairly nice and I'll return any friend requests and I'll respond to all DMs and palpad messages...and that's about it, I guess?

(Yes, I'm awful at writing intros, shushy you.)

Title: ...

Chewydabacca was really nice and lended me a female combee, so now I'm shiny hunting (yay!)
I've only hatched 3 combee though, so I still have a long way to go :) (and now I have an urge to check on my eggies every 10 minuted to see if they hatched, but well... never mind :P )

Aside from shiny hunting, I also changed my avatar to Akita from Ninjago (I dunno if anyone on here watches it, but it's pretty cool) because she's cute and fluffy.


Now I have to stop rambling and go read my Computer Networks textbook so I don't bomb the rest of my quizzes...

Just because I'm stupid and I like to ramble, here's a quick overview of what else I have to do today:

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Read Textbook
Chores
Dinner
Hug My Sister
Practice Pose Drawing
Figure Out How To Use Medibang Properly
Check on my combee to see if they laid more eggs (my sister keeps telling me that the word is "spawn" instead of "lay", but doesn't spawn refer to creepers in minecraft?)

Ok, as aforementioned I'll shut up and go do my homework :P

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Oh, and you guys can comment if you want, I just doubt anyone would be bored enough read this, so...

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Wait the first chapter of the textbook is 100 pages long....this is going to take a while

Title: me ranting

Deleted, because I've decided to shut up and stop talking about things I don't understand.

I dunno what to write, so I'm just going to leave this here and hide under a rock or something :P

And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah, I drive myself crazy
'Cause I can't escape the gravity

I hatched my elekid from the event distribution yayy

Time for me to write dumb stuff again. I'm just curious, but is anyone actually reading all of this? Now everyone's going to find out that I'm an idiot, but I mean, being an idiot isn't bad, I guess.

I'm kind of sleepy because I stayed up until 12 thinking about my computational geometry problem I couldn't solve.

But anyways, I've decided to try to be a better human, so here a quick plan for the day:
1. Corporate Finance
2. Communication Networks
3. Finish writing/breaking my code
4. DOODLE Time (this is the very important :D )
5. Go and chat up people on PH and be fwiends with them and try to be less stupid (this is difficult, given that I'm a genius at being an idiot)

Okies now its time for me to stop being noisy :P
I might write more later today depending on my mood, but as aforementioned, I have to do my homework.

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Oh, and I'm thinking of starting a blog on how to solve competitive programming problems if anyone would be interested...

I'm gonna try sending my swampert to marine cave tonight, hopefully he can beat kyogre :)

Sometimes, standing from a distant vantage point can let you see the whole picture, to let you see things more clearly than others. But sometimes, it makes you feel isolated from everything else, and incredibly lost.

I really don't know what to do or say.

Yes, I'm producing excellent results in my academics, I can complete two coursera courses every month, and so on and so forth. But I doubt it matters. The cutoff for each course is only about 60%, and it makes everything overly easy.

I don't think I'm spending enough time coding at all. If I want to get to platinum in my USACO contests this year, I should be spending my time on learning how to write Java and debug things properly, not wasting my time on these online certificates that I could get whenever I want.

I'm not doing enough, and I'm scared of the consequences if I fail.

Last year, I failed the bronze level twice, and failed silver once.
I don't think that my skills are being judged accurately. If I screw up a level, I'm a good for nothing. If I pass, I'm treated as if I'm some great prodigy, and we all know that's not how things work at all. And most unfortunately, I can't rate my own skills at all.

My father has too much faith in me, and my mother too little. I don't know what she sees in me, or what she's expecting of me. Whenever I lose, or fail, she's always there, telling me that I'm sacrificing her happiness for my own future, and that she never wanted me to be born, that I'm unlike my sister and always letting her down.
I know that she might not necessarily think of me as that all the time, and I know that I deserve it.
But I'm an awful person and I just can't forget. No matter what I do, whether I'm awake or asleep, I can hear the phantom voice telling me that I'll fail again.

That voice always tells me to quit, to stop doing it, that I'm not good at it and never will be. But I have no choice, because this is the only thing I know how to do. It's the only thing that I can do. There's nothing left for me other than this.

I don't know why I'm writing this either. Did I honestly believe that by writing about how pitiful I am, someone would come and pity me? Or that writing down my feelings would make me feel better? It doesn't make me feel better at all.

It's already July, and I only have until December.
Everyone tells me that I think too much and worry too much, but the reason why I worry is because I have no idea what to do.
But it's not like they'll come and catch me if I fall.

I'll probably delete this later, because I'm some idiot who constantly worries about what people think of me, and I don't want people to pity me and talk to me with some patronizing tone and tell me that the world in fact cares about me or whatever.
So what if I'm some failure, what if I'm a coward. How long do I need to be strong for?

I hate myself, and I'm going to stop being a jerk.

I hatched an illumise for bugcontest, and I hatched some more combees.
Once I finish my shiny hunt, I might give away my big pile of extra combees to newbies so they'll have enough honey to catch stuff on route 53.

Okies, now it's time to get back to my homework.

After 70 combees, I finally got my shiny!! Yaay!

And now I have to deal with my all my extra combees...

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Oh, and since this is kind of important....

Perfect Breeding Pair:
30305151


30595644



Shiny:
30829139

I'm collecting Vivillion patterns, but I'm not good at safari zone, so this is probably going to take a while...
I'll update as I get more :)

I'm doing my Usaco Problems and I thought I might share some solutions if anyone's interested in competitive programming.

Cow Dance Show Problem Link:
http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=690
Java Sols By Me:
https://pastebin.com/8wPJ25aL

Hoof Paper Scissors Problem LinK:
http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=691
Java Sols By Me:
https://pastebin.com/JL2qbESd

Secret Cow Code Problem Link:
http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=692
Sols By Me:
https://pastebin.com/zrQJ3XVH

Explanations coming soon, hopefully I can finish the powerpoint slides for problems 1 and 2 by the end of next week :)
Problem 3 is a bit more mathy and difficult, so it'll take a bit longer

Covid was really nice and helped me fund my pokeradar my batteries, so now and I'm shiny-hunting dratini :)
This one is a little more difficult because it takes 10455? steps to hatch, but hopefully I'll manage to hatch all the eggies.

Oh, and since I realized that some people are reading my really boring logbook...

This is really important!
If you guys find any newbies that need combees, I have a free breeding pair left (there were actually two but I forgot to everstone one of the females and then it evolved :P )
LINK: https://pokeheroes.com/gts_my_trades

I also have 40 or so individual male combees, so if you don't have enough combees, please PM/PP me and I'll give you one for free!

Okies, I have to go do my homework again...

*The reason why I use hopefully so much is because I don't really have any , but I have to have some faith in the world or else (as my sister claims), no one will like me.

I didn't do a lot of homework yesterday, since I was with my sister at a gala in one of the MUDs (multi user dungeon) that unfortunately I don't play so often anymore. I didn't get forgotten by everyone else (hopefully?) because I'm the only person there who dresses up as a shark to fancy parties... (I'm thinking of donning an orca costume next year :P )

Aside from that, I also went bashing with my sister, and I raised 150k essence for my Goddess, and hopefully she will be proud of me (if she hasn't forgotten her little shark.)

Then, I just doodled some stuff (I can't draw necks and shoulders, so everything I draw ends up looking like a coat hanger with some macaroni tube as the neck, but I'm trying my best to learn some more anatomy and look at more art references to improve my art.)


Later, I teached my sister to play Mineblocks (neither of us can play the 3d version, because it makes us dizzy and then we fall into a lake and die) because she claimed she was bored, and I must have done a good job because she only died once (from jumping into a pit that I tried to stop her from jumping into), and it was quite entertaining to watch her dig stuff and light up her little base (houses should always be lit up like a Christmas tree so... bad things don't come in.) But then her mom called her and then she closed the tab, and then all our progress went poof. But it was fun nevertheless.

Now I've written enough positive stuff, I guess?

Today has to be more productive though, so here are my plans:

1. Register for financial aid for corporate finance
2. Read network communications textbook
3. Figure out how to optimize 8-queens problem
4. Keep working on my powerpoint slides for the usaco problems


And hopefully if I'm efficient, I'll be able to do all of that and watch Ninjago with my sister tonight.

(And this is just me being dumb, but how did my awful diary get so many clicks.... *dies*)

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I just realized my sentence structures are awful, but it's not like I can do anything about it... I never learned how to write properly...

Was opening my google drive today and found out that all my Ninjago episodes won't load and keep doing some stupid spinny thing.
They used to play properly, but I bet google did another stupid update, and now none of the mp4s I upload will work.

Aside from that, I'm just feeling awful. Of course I could write it down, but then everyone will hate me if they don't already. And writing it down doesn't make me feel better, so I don't know what to do now.

My Coursera auto-logged out, but unfortunately I don't have the password or even the recovery email, so I have to wait for my dad to come home from the notary to ask him the password.

So now I have to look at my dumb 13 queens problem that everyone seems to know how to do except for me.

I might write about my ocs later today. I might not.

I can be forgiven for being awful once in a while, right? Please don't judge me by what I write on here, it's just me trying to pretend I'm not so pathetic :)

Beep beep boop boop!
(Yes, this is me rambling again)

I forgot to write yesterday because I was debugging my eight queens, but I finally finished all my USACO problems, and I'm so happy!

Now I can go have fun and attend virtual competitions on codeforces and bomb all of them (which is still fun, in a way, i guess :D )

I also got my first Coursera certificate, so now I can do more courses :)

I have to remember to get my financial aid applications for my next two courses, or else my workload will be too light and I won't be able to get my wonderful goal of 24 certificates in a year (yes, I know it's crazy, but well... wynaut?)

The applications are actually more difficult to do than the actual course content (at least for me) but the certificates are super expensive, and I'm broke, so... I better go sharpen up my composition skills and go fill out those forms :P


Life is mostly peaceful now, since my dad got his notary stuff done, and now there's no more awful stuff that he has to deal with (hopefully?)
My sister has an exam today, and (she claims) she didn't study, but most of the time she passes regardless of whether she studies, and I have lots of faith in her, so she will pass.


In pokeheroes, I've been shiny-hunting dratini, and it's been going well so far :)
I've hatched about 7 or so in 4 days (my breeding pair isn't perfect, but I don't really think I have the capacity to hatch more eggs anyways, so..)
Hopefully, I'll be able to get to 40 in a week or two

I've also been trying to clean and organize my storage boxes, I currently have 7 of them (Generation 1-5 collections, a misc box, and a box for retros), but I might have to use a different organization method, because boxes are expensive and I don't think I'll be able to afford a box for every region *cries*


Anyways, I have to get to those aforementioned applications, and my toothbrush is making very concerning buzzing noises from the bathroom, so I'll write some more later...and force everyone reading this to listen to me talk about how to optimize the eight queens method...hehehe... *evil grin*

Trying to understand the optimization process is like pulling teeth, but the implementation actually isn't that difficult, so don't worry :)

I went and participated in a virtual Codeforces competition. I didn't do as well as I planned. The time limit was 2 hours for 7 questions, but I only managed to completed 5 (I bombed problem 3 and spent 40 minutes on it) and ended up getting a ranking of 2600 out of 38000 participants. I think I could have done better, especially because the first 2 questions were relatively simple and I finished both in 25 minutes.

My dad said that I did well enough for my first try, but I'm not really satisfied. (Maybe I am going paranoid just as everyone says :P )
Hopefully after a week or two I'll get back on track and I'll be able to do better.

Other than that, today was a good day, though, so I'm prepared to go figure out what I did wrong, and start prepping for the next competition, I guess (One day, I want to attend one of the real-time ones, and then I can get points and t-shirts :) (No one can understand my obsession with t-shirts, but to me, it's kind of a physical representation of all the hard work I've done, and the t-shirts look cool too. ) )

Anyways, I have to go take a bath now, and go tickle/annoy my sister, so I'll write more tomorrow.

I've also been thinking about writing a better intro for myself (all my intros suck, but I mean, how am I supposed to introduce myself when I don't even know anything about me? I probably know my friends better than I know myself.)

Ok, it's time for me to stop using my brain. Thinking is difficult, and it's not my fault that I'm stupid -_-

Didn't write for the past few days because I was feeling really lacking in motivation in general, but anyways, I'm back :)
I play FR, and the Ice Flight's competing for dominance conquest, so now everyone's busy exalting dragons and racking up points for our armory. I've exalted 3 so far, and I'm trying to snatch cheap fodder so I can turn them in for stickers.

I'm hoping to be more active in dominance, and be of some contribution to my flight, I guess :)

I've also been trying to code more, it's difficult but I do try my best.

I've been watching S11 of Ninjago with my sister, and it's a awful season (according to everyone in the fandom), but I kinda like it, the villains are firey snakes and they're really cute and adorable.

Eh, I think I've started rambling again :P
I'll have to go count how many dragons I've exalted and go write it down before I lose track of my ids...