Forum Thread

I've been wanting to make a little journal for awhile now, I never really know how to start these kind of things...

For now, I will just say that this is going to be a place for me to keep ideas, track progress on shiny hunts and items or really anything I would usually make a notepad document for ^^; This way I don't have to be on my laptop to check progress of certain things.


I will clean this first post up at some point with more introduction info~ but for now... It's a Start!

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Title: Mega's!

Mega/Mega-Ables I Own

003. Venusaur
006. Charizard X
006. Charizard Y
009. Blastoise
015. Beedrill
018. Pidgeot
065. Alakazam
080. Slowbro
094. Gengar
115. Kangaskhan
127. Pinsir
130, Gyrados
142. Aerodactyl
150. Mewtwo X
150. Mewtwo Y
181. Ampharos
181. Spring Ampharos (Event)
212. Scizor
214. Mega Heracross
229. Houndoom
248. Tyranitar
248. Mecha Tyranitar (Event)
254. Sceptile
257. Blaziken
260. Swampert
282. Gardevoir
302. Sableye
303. Mawile
306. Aggron
308. Medicham
310. Manectric
319. Sharpedo
323. Camerupt
334. Altaria
354. Banette
354. Mega Banettenstein (Event)
359. Absol
362 Glalie
373. Mega Salamence
376. Metagross
428. Lopunny
428. Mega Easter Lopunny (Event)
445. Garchomp
448. Lucario
448. Lucario-Sensei (Event)
460. Abomasnow
475. Gallade
478. Frosslass (PH Exclusive)
487. Mega Giratina
531. Mega Audino
719. Diancie




Mega/Mega-Ables I Need

065. Autumn Alakazam (Event)
080. Yorebro (Event)
181. Summer Ampharos (Event)
208. Steelix
257. Robin Blaze (Event)
282. Festival Gardevoir (Event)
323. Winter Camerupt (Event)
334. Canderia (Event)
373. Sala da Menci (Event)
373. Lord Salamence (Event)



Also, need extras of: Latias, Latios, Rayquaza, Kyogre & Groudon for Mega/Primal Formes.

66 Mega's Listed in the Pokedex.
6 Mega's Evolved.
Current Mega Stone Count: 15

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Title: Non PH Related

I'm mainly just going to ramble here, post songs I'm listening to, maybe a few lyrics. Probably wont link to a YT video 'cuz honestly I don't feel like the hassle of making sure they are PH approved.


Main one that is hitting me hard right now, and seems to be an exact measure of how I'm feeling right now: "Would it Matter?" - Skillet

I know I'm a mess and I wanna be someone
Someone that I'd like better
...
What if I just pulled myself together
Would it matter at all
What if I just tried not to remember
Would it matter at all
All the chances that have passed me by
Would it matter if I gave it one more try


Ones that are helping me not feel like such a failure:

"Battle Scars" - Paradise Fears
"Angel With a Shotgun" - The Cab
"Burning Bright" - Shinedown
"These Walls" - Trapt
"Scars" - PaPa Roach
"Stand in the Rain" - Superchick
"Crash and Burn" - Savage Garden
"Push" - Matchbox Twenty
"I'm Not The One" - 3Oh!3
"Maybe" - Sick Puppies
"Your Guardian Angel" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
"Suffocate" - Finger Eleven
"Unbreakable" - Fireflight
"Comeback" - Relight Kings
"Hear You Me" - Jimmy Eat World
"Keep Your Head Up" - Andy Grammar
"I'd Come For You" - Nickelback

"Living Louder" The Cab
"Waiting For The World To Fall" - Jars of Clay

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Title: Event Log

Event Hunt Log


Spring Ampharos (Start Date: 4/24/2018)


Shinies:

First Hatch - Chain #52 M


Mega-ables:

First Hatch - Chain #10 F
Second Hatch - Chain #18 F
Third Hatch - Chain #77 M
Fourth Hatch - Chain #91 M

Title: BerryGarden

Random things from the Berrygarden- just a way to keep up with things.


Current Stock

+1
+3
+7
+7
+4
+6
+7
+4
+5
+5

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Title: SM Log

Shiny Mega Steelix Log

Hunt Started: 7/17/18

# Shinies Hatched:

15 - as of 8/25/18

Mega-ables Hatched:

First Hatch M
Second Hatch M
Third Hatch M
Fourth Hatch F
Fifth Hatch M
Sixth Hatch M
Seventh Hatch F



Shiny Mega hatched on 8/25/18, Chain #508, F.


~*Iron Maiden*~

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Title: Marriage

Instead of blowing my feed up with my sappy heart broken posts I figueed I could just post things here...

It is after all a diary right?


I don't understand how someone can just act like their wife doesn't exist. Or act like horrible things werent said. I get that he wants to be civil, but acting like nothing is wrong: talking about how his boss has been riding him all week, asking whats for dinner, if we need anything from the store, telling me to let him know what times I selected for one of the kids teacher conferences, letting me know when/ where he's going at night...

I can see him on Snapchat with I dont really know who... Taking pics with our daughter n sending them to, my guess, the girl hes interested in. It's killing me. I'm trying to not let it show how much I'm hurting infront of the kids, but when they go to bed and I go to my room I cant hold it in anymore. I've cried for HOURS straight and crying myself to sleep.

I honestly dont even care about the girl. I'm hurt bc its somerhing we said wed never do to one another, but to be truthful- I would still want to try and make it work if he was only willing. I'm hurt bc he says they started flirting intently after I had already made the changes and was doing better.

So I still wasnt enough.

I had a special wallet made for his bday with the kids faces burned into one side and then found a foil packet on top of our fridge. The foil package was what he had in the Navy to pretext special things from the elements. Hes had it with him since 2009. Inside was a picture of us from 09 and 2 letters I wrote him back then when he went on his first deployment after meeting him. Hes never taken them out of his wallet. And seeing them out of it broke me even more. And it was before the final argument. The packet was also up there with his ring... To be fair he sprained his finger o it was in a splint for awhile but after it never made it back on...


Today I realized February is fast approaching. All I can think of is hes going to be doing something super meaningful for this girl... And I'm going to be completely alone. I haven't been alone on vday in 9 yrs.

I'm going to be a single mother of 3. I have no desire to date anymore- I mean really who would want that kind of baggage?? 2 baby daddies, and most ppl my age have kids of their own so that just seems like alot of possible drama. And yes I know I'm going to focus on my kids only and that's great, but seeing as how lonely ive been just this past year I can only imagine how much worse it will get.

My mom is so gungho about getting my own bank accounts and such set up immediately and telling me to separate stuff NOW. She doesnt understand that I need time. I'm allowed to be sad that my marriage is/ fallin apart. She doesnt understand since shes the strong willed person that is basically a middle finger to whoever doesn't agree with her so the very next morning after I told her she was rattling off horrible things and scenarios about him prolly lying and cheating for a long time and then making a list on stuff I need to get going.

Like. Please give me time to learn how to breathe again!

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Title: Dr Appointment

YOU GUYS!!

I had my appointment. Omg. I am in love with this Dr. Ive never had a Dr just relax in the room and TALK comfortably.

I cried. She almost cried. For me with my severe social anxiety and ever mounting depression it was a relief to honestly not feel judged. It's also the very 1st person I have ever ask the specific difference of my cutting. "Is it superficial to relieve anxiety? Or actively trying to harm where you would need medical attention?" Just fir her to ask it like that makes me want to cry in relief. She understood. I explained it how I usually see it as I can't fix the pain I feel inside but a cut i can see and feel physically and I can fix that. She was actually impressed with it.

I'm going to be seeing her every 2 weeks until I'm either at a good place or she has done everything in her power and has to refer me to a psychiatrist. Also the Depression assessment I scored a 23/27...

But I have Cymbalta, BusPIRone and Trazodone to help me sleep. Guys... I'm so excited.

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