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love psalm

☆the gaming list has been moved, brother Vincent

but we had a good run.

volcanic!!

y'all got any l i f e i could have

masamune

[about inactiveness/future plans]

staff notation to last forever

hey.
I'm always really sad and tired recently. I thought the fasting would help, or improve me, but maybe I need to do it longer.
sometimes I think ph isn't doing me any good, people sometimes overshare and it usually makes me feel worse [given, nobody forces me to check the notification wall constantly]
leaving is sometimes on my mind, but wouldn't that leave a hole in my life? I don't have any other social thing. I don't mind being alone, I have a lot of time to play games, write, read and focus on my studies. I think sometimes I miss sharing the stuff I enjoy, I'm self-conscious about my hobbies. [maybe I should make a google doc, or start a diary, or something]

maybe I should just care less about the site. I keep worrying about ranklist placements, and I don't even know why. I don't feel like it matters as much to me anymore. what can you even do on here nowadays? shiny hunt, I guess. collect money for bigger shiny hunts. collect things. I'm out of the loop with the new pokemon games, so I don't have any strong feelings for the new pokemon releases on here.
I find it hard to care about anything nowadays. I try to get into games/movies/book series, but I don't feel as much as I used to.

soon I have to begin writing my bachelor thesis, I'm sure I won't have much time to feel this way once I'm actually busy.

the dog days are over

i
am
productivity
once my stupid paper is finally done I'll have to join everyone in real life and I'm literally not ready for that. do you know how many unplayed games I have??

jokes aside, it's going to be a rough time again, looking for a new occupation is never fun. I've planned to take a trip down nostalgia lane once I've handed my thesis in, as in playing some old game from my childhood or early teens. I'm not sure what exactly, but I'm ready to break out my ps2 and my wii and stuff if needed. I have a feeling it might make me feel better and help me destress.
(funny thing is that I consider pokeheroes a fairly nostalgic game haha, but it doesn't really count.) I'm even prepared to blast some early 2010 songs or something. Just take a break from the current stuff I play and listen to at the moment.
I checked my old gaming logs in these memoirs but eh, I don't think they're old enough. maybe I'll even opt for a handheld game?? I hope my gameboy sp still works.

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I'm playing way too much azur lane recently, it's super comforting. Having my secretary greet me every morning gives me life. there's few games that resonate so much with me, and I'm ashamed to admit that it's literally a mobile game for me. I guess I can't help it when there's animu waifus involved.

life is difficult, but look on the bright side: there's more loot on hard mode.

blessed & possessed

☆make one sprite good enough for mega contest
☆gather more gamechips, get lugia vouchers $$$
☆get retro corsola somehow
☆make johto missing shiny list (include spares)
☆what hunt(s) could I torture myself with long-term?

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johto missing shinies
-girafarig
-pineco+foretress
-gligar x2
-snubbull+granbull
-shuckle
-teddiursa+ursaring
-slugma+magcargo
-swinub+piloswine x2
-corsola
-delibird
-phanpy+donphan
-stantler
-smeargle
-tyrogue x??
-larvitar+pupitar+despotar
(remaining are unown+legends)

cool hunts/projects
-shiny ho-oh: keep wondertrading like usual and hope for the best [passive]
-shiny celebi: focus on that damn tree more, don't neglect the bees [passive]
-shiny deoxys: long-winded shiny legend hunt, but daycare only [low-effort]
-shiny mega mewtwo: as above, but also way more painful since megas are fickle [low-effort]
-shiny retro koffing + lugia: from the burned tower rumble. come in eggs [passive]

-regular shiny mega hunts: [medium effort]
venusaur (45 grass, 45 poison) [easy to collect]
swampert (90 water) [hard to collect]
aggron (9 rock 9 steel) [fairly easy to collect]
gardevoir [not viable as a gem-supported hunt; daycare only]
claydol (27 ground 27 psychic) [hard to collect; daycare focus]
galarian rapidash (54 psychic gems) [not viable; daycare only]
mawile [not viable; daycare only]
(new megas after the contest?)

-event hunts: [medium effort; long]
shiny mega events in general (like obsidianix and mecha tyranitar e.g) [VERY long]
lilifleur (common!)
goleros
impasta
crystal aron
eternal flabebe
shaysola
mikofoo

the obstacle is the way

know what's tiring? existing.
jokes aside, sometimes i don't know what to do with myself. i jump from one activity to the next, always keeping busy, drowning myself in things i genuinely care about, but then i'm not occupying myself for a few moments and it comes crashing down.
if there's a point, do we have to find it ourselves? why does nobody let us know beforehand?
probably normal to feel this way once in a while, especially after playing some somewhat existential games, but man.
Life's good, i'm very privileged, so why am i not enjoying myself?

頑張って よ ！！

hoenn shinies:
treeko 2x
skitty x2
plusle
minun
volbeat
illumise
wailmer x2
torkoal
spoink x2
spinda x2
cacnea x2

fun shinies:
-oricorio ballet
-nickit
-cursola

long term project ideas:
(while being less active)
-pichu hunt + gather narichu eggs
-shedinja
-sm galar ponyta
-heatran: 48/80
-shellos north