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Hi, I'm Yolo (duh..), nice to meet you mysterious person I probably don't know but is more awesome then me cuz I'm not awesome. Anywho, this is my diary, I will write my mostly dark thoughts here since hardly anything good happens to me. Just so you know I don't act this... Sad when you talk to me, except if anything like someone close to me died. You don't believe me? Well then try and palpad me, I dare you. If your already my friend, you should believe me, I think. Quick rule: Don't post here wow so original, 10/10 IGN, it's my diary after all. I'll start of how I feel today and now:

Saturday Morning, 30th of January 2016

I'm about to finish my homework (Maths) since I got Saturday school to help me with Maths and English. I don't really see how it helps me but apparently it does. I'm doing to this to kill time since I started waiting for my friends to come on. Outside of PH, I pretty much don't have friends that talk to me daily. Yes, there's school, yes I do have quite a bit of friends there but I always act at school I'm happy, I'm ok, there's nothing wrong with life and I'm just enjoying it. I always lie that. Everyday after school, when I go home, I feel like getting a dagger and killing myself... Yes, dark, I warned you... I'll stop for now. It's the morning after all, there's nothing special in my mornings. I'll be sure to write at night and try to remember stuff that happened. I have a really bad memory just so you know. I might missed out days since nothing interesting happened or I forgot... Anywho I'll see you in the next post.

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Sunday Morning, 31st of January 2016

Tomorrow's February... Already. There's a lot going on for me in February. I will be flying to Scotland to see my sisters new house and my uncle, aunty and my mum's best two friends are coming from Lithuania. I'm really excited for February.
Yesterday was pretty much a normal Saturday. Mum was arguing and annoying me, my little brother was arguing and annoying me. I had to walk to school (about 30mins but I'm a fast walker, I would say) because I forgot my oyster, which is a thing in UK, that lets children use the buses and all other transportation. My mum and little brother took the bus so I was alone. I was kind of glad I was alone. Both of them weren't there to annoy me so I could just go deep into my thoughts. Yes, I'm weird but we all do it sometimes just admit it. Other then that, I did a bit of drawing and watching YouTube but not too much because most people I watch swear and I don't have any headphones or earphones. Today, like pretty much every other kid in my school, I'm doing my homework. Probably not going to post tomorrow since today is going to be boring. Anywho, I'll see you in the next post!

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Monday Morning, 1st of February 2016

Mondays... I hate them. Today I got dance, PE and street dance club. I hate doing exercise but it has to be done, my mum keeps on bothering me if I don't. She wants me to be perfect but I'm not. She always tells me that I could be better. Always. At Mondays I have the worst subjects with the worst people...
Sunday was ok, I guess. I made a new friend, that's good. I didn't finish all my homework as usual... I need to stop being so distracted, I know something bad will happen if I don't. I don't want to lose anything in life now. I have great friends and great grades but I know one day they both will fall apart... Don't know it the day will come soon but I hope not, I really do...

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Tuesday Afternoon, 2nd of February 2016

I forgot to write in the morning but at least I didn't forget for the whole say. I also didn't have time as I was reading a book a bit too much. Sorry people if you actually read this.
Monday was horrible. I still can hardly walk without my legs hurting. Fitness was a bit too hard, there was a lot of footwork. Street dance and dance was ok, I guess. Nothing really special happened. Other then that, nothing new or good or super bad that I want to share happened.
Tuesday is going better then Monday. The lessons I had were more fun. Can't wait until I go to Scotland! Sorry if I'm always saying it but I really can't wait! I finally get to escape what might the main reason of my constant depression. There was no after school club since the teacher was on a trip, yay for me. I hope Wednesday is going to be better. Thursdays are always the best for me since I have my most favourite subjects then. I don't think I'll be going to the homework club tomorrow, it's boring and they don't really help. I'm going a drawing for Flaafy and SweetMelody, their such a cute couple and Melody asked for it. It's going to be a new style I never done so, it's definitely going to be interesting... Well anyways, that's all for now, I'll see you in the next post!

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Wednesday Afternoon, 3rd of February 2016

Today was not that bad! I smiled more, my depression seemed to decrease and I hardly feel like killing anyone! That's a rare one, didn't feel like that for a very long time.
School was boring as always but a bit more fun, as least. I got nothing to say... Today I had a 10 minutes detention because I was late but it wasn't really my fault. I started to eat more. People who know me will know this is really good news. Every afternoon feels like Friday's afternoon, which is a good thing since I don't really have anything to do. Anything boring. I also been listening to music more and talking to my family. Normally, I would hardly talk to my parents but now it seems like I can trust them more now and talk more. I have a reading assessment-ish tomorrow, it's English. It should be easy, my teacher has been talking how easy it is to get level 6 which is quite high for my year. I have one homework to do and I'll practice English a bit more to get a higher grade. I hope I do, were reading Lord of the Flies if you wonder. I really recommend this book! Anywho, thanks for reading my boring diary, I'll see you in the next post!

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Thursday Evening, 4th of February 2016

Today was as good as it can get. The weather was perfect today, school was as good as it ever can get. People were funny at my school, not even rude to me. Someone even asked me if I would be their Valentines but as I don't really care about love. Two people called me cute... I guess I don't understand the meaning of cute. Too many people call me cute, I'M NOT CUTE! Sorry but I don't agree with those people. Both were girls and my friends so I guess I should listen to them. Swimming was ok today and nothing new happened. My English assessment went well. That's all I guess... I'll see you in the next post! ^^

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Friday Evening, 5th of February 2016

Nothing special happened today. I've done a good drawing with oil pastel, seeing as I hate it. The weather is still perfect. School is meh. I'm gonna hate Saturday's, I hate my other school. I wish I could just stop it. It isn't helped me, clearly yet I'm forced to go! It's just isn't fair.
Nothing new happened so, that's all for now. I'm going to be quite busy so I might not post tomorrow. Sorry if I don't. Anyways, I'll see you in the next post..

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Midnight Sunday, 7th of February 2016

My mum took my tablet for a week, for basically nothing. Stupid little brother.... I hate my family. This will be the reason I wont be posting so much.
Saturday was terrible. I was walking alone again. My mum is really getting on my nerves. Why..? I hate my life. I don't want to talk about anything. Sorry for a very short post but I don't feel like it today. I'll see you in the next post...

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Evening Monday, 8th of February 2016

Another day I don't want to talk to anyone... I feel like there's a devil inside me and it's going to come out soon.... I'm sorry, there's nothing I can say about today. I'll see you in the next post, if I'll be alive.

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