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Posted: Sat, 27/10/2018 09:31 (6 Years ago)
Kids!

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Posted: Tue, 04/09/2018 13:52 (6 Years ago)
I'm sorry if I missed it somewhere in any of the posts but will the winner's story be posted anywhere special for everyone to read? Will it become part of PH as like a side adventure tale or something? I'm just curious as it would be an interesting read for sure! Thank you!

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Posted: Mon, 03/09/2018 14:39 (6 Years ago)
I'm looking forward to participating in this this! Thank you for the opportunity!

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Posted: Thu, 09/08/2018 22:34 (6 Years ago)

Title: Personal Reminder

Just a note

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Posted: Thu, 09/08/2018 22:29 (6 Years ago)

Title: Keep it going!

Bump! Trying to keep this thread going all year round!

Please feel free to approach me ShadowedFury if you ever need to talk about anything. I'm part of Friends For Community Support as well and will to try and help you out as best I can with the game as well.

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Posted: Tue, 01/05/2018 18:46 (6 Years ago)

Title: Fitness4Mind4Body 2018

Welcome to 2018's Mental Health Awareness Month!

The theme is Fitness4Mindy4Body


Before jumping into all of the links of information compiled for this year, I'd like to share a song that's a favorite of mine but I feel like everyone can relate to it in some way. We deserve to be accepted for who we are, whether we are at our best or at our worst.

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'At My Best' -MGK-
Turn my vocals up, alright
I wrote this song as a message for help
On behalf of anybody findin' they self
I wrote this letter to numb your pain
'Cause everyday I wake up, I'm feelin' the same
I got issues just like you got issues
I been hurt, I seen the scar tissue
If I showed you, would you run away?
Do I gotta hide 'em for you to wanna stay?
Do I, even need you? Should I leave you?
Do I, gotta be you, just to please you?
Do I, say I'm all good, when I bleed you
Through my, heart? Quit tearin' mine apart
I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best
Got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up, uh
I got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up
'Cause life is about, aight check this out, look
Life is about makin' mistakes
It's also about tryna be great (right)
Do not let failure scare you away
I know you fed up, you fall, get up
It's all in us, I can speak about 'cause I did it (true)
Ladies and gentlemen, here's the exhibit
It's my life, look a little closer, you could see the highlight
Gold ain't always golden but I told 'em
Look at all the years I've been waitin' for a moment
Shed a lot of tears just to smile in the mornin'
Tell me could you love me? Tell me could you love me?
Tell me could you love me if I told you why?
I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best
This song's for anybody, yeah
Who feels like I did, never the cool kid
This song's for anybody
Who fought their way through, always remain true
This song's for anybody
The one's who tryin' to get it, the one's who dream it and live it
This song's for anybody
This song, this song, this song, this song, this song, this song
Ohh, I shout, I swear, I get angry, I get scared
I fall, I break, I mess up, I make mistakes
But if you can't take me at my worst
You don't deserve me at my best
Got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up, uh
Got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up, uh
I got to keep it goin', got to keep my head up
'Cause life is about



Here's some inspirational quotes about mental health and ending stigma while more can be found here

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“Don’t be ashamed of your story. It will inspire others.”

“I will never understand why every organ in your body get support and sympathy when it is ill, except for your brain.”

“People with mental health conditions deserve just as much support and compassion as people with physical health conditions.”

“I lie about being sick sometimes, because people understand if you have a cold, but not if you have depression.”

“Don’t ask me to snap out of it.”

“You can’t tell just by looking at someone what they are dealing with inside.”

“Never apologize to others for their misunderstanding of who you are.”

“I am still me, no matter my mental health.”

“Please don’t say, ‘It’s because of your BPD’ all the time. My opinion matters even if it doesn’t line up with your opinion. I am not my diagnosis.”

“Don’t expect everyone to understand your journey, especially if they have never had to walk your path.”

“The deepest pain I ever felt was denying my own feelings to make everyone else comfortable.”

“Ignore those who say just get over it. Healing is a process.”

“You cannot recover from anxiety by just staying calm. You cannot recover from depression by just being positive. You cannot recover from anorexia nervosa by just eating more. If mental illnesses were that simple we wouldn’t be struggling in the first place.”

“Those who suffer from mental illness are stronger than you think. We must fight to go to work, care for our families, be there for our friends, and act ‘normal’ while battling unimaginable pain.”

“The most violent element in society is ignorance.”

“The only thing more exhausting than having a mental illness is pretending like you don’t.”

"It's so common, it could be anyone. The trouble is, nobody wants to talk about it. And that makes everything worse."


Now here are some bits of information about mental health, stigma, and what you can do to stay healthy!

Stigma is when someone, or even you yourself, views a person in a negative way just because they have a mental health condition. Some people describe stigma as a feeling of shame or judgement from someone else. Stigma can even come from an internal place, confusing feeling bad with being bad.
Navigating life with a mental health condition can be tough, and the isolation, blame and secrecy that is often encouraged by stigma can create huge challenges to reaching out, getting needed support and living well. Mental Health and Stigma Fact Sheet

The purpose for Mental Health Awareness Month is to raise awareness and educate the public about: mental illnesses, such as the 18.1% of Americans who suffer from depression, schizophrenia, and bipolar disorder; the realities of living with these conditions; and strategies for attaining mental health and wellness. It also aims to draw attention to suicide, which can be precipitated by some mental illnesses. Additionally, Mental Health Awareness Month strives to reduce the stigma (negative attitudes and misconceptions) that surrounds mental illnesses. The month came about by presidential proclamation in 1949 and has been celebrated every year since.

A website called Mental Health America offers a 'toolkit' with helpful information about this year's theme. The toolkit focuses on: diet and nutrition, exercise, the gut-brain connection, sleep, and stress. Materials also include: Fact sheets on how mental health is affected by these things, worksheets on making life changes, a promotional poster, and social media related content. It can be found here You will have to fill out the brief online form to gain access to the toolkit.

Also on the Mental Health America website, you will find other helpful information such as:
Finding Help- it offers mental health screening tools, finding an affiliate in your area, information about learning about the types of mental health treatments and supports available, help in finding a support group or additional mental health resources in your community, and "Where To Get Help" an interactive tool to find the best options for you. It also has information about working with providers, has an FAQ section for commonly asked questions from insurance companies, treatments, to medications as well as a section for learning how to recover your life; which focuses on housing and relationships. Lastly, it has a great section on wellness tools that you can use every day to help live your life well. So check around the website and see what you can find for yourself. Don't be afraid to explore a little!


NAMI is another great organization that has a website with information about mental health and helps to raise awareness while fighting stigma. Website

Their theme is 'CureStigma' for the month of May and their website states:
Each year millions of Americans face the reality of living with a mental illness. During May, NAMI and the rest of the country are raising awareness of mental health. Each year we fight stigma, provide support, educate the public and advocate for policies that support people with mental illness and their families.
In 2018, NAMI will promote the theme of "CureStigma" throughout all awareness events, including Mental Health Month.
Why this cause is important: One in 5 Americans is affected by mental health conditions. Stigma is toxic to their mental health because it creates an environment of shame, fear and silence that prevents many people from seeking help and treatment. The perception of mental illness won’t change unless we act to change it.
Campaign manifesto: There’s a virus spreading across America. It harms the 1 in 5 Americans affected by mental health conditions. It shames them into silence. It prevents them from seeking help. And in some cases, it takes lives. What virus are we talking about? It’s stigma. Stigma against people with mental health conditions. But there’s good news. Stigma is 100% curable. Compassion, empathy and understanding are the antidote. Your voice can spread the cure. Join NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness. Together we can #CureStigma.

Now, here's some great links regarding mental health!

Article about mental health awareness month

Super skills to help friends

Mental health topics from A-Z

Background about mental health awareness month

2018 awareness calendar

facts and statistics of 2017 and 2018

Free DSM-5 copy <-- You can freely download or view the Full Text edition and read what the American Psychiatric Association classifies disorders to be -Please note- Do NOT try to diagnosis yourself. This should be left to a professional, this is just to give you an idea about what they look for concerning disorders.


I'd like to touch on the history of mental health treatments in this section below followed by some links to current techniques for several therapies. It's safe to say that treatments have improved over the years as doctors now have a better understanding of mental illness.

In the old days, mental illness was not fully understood and it's sad to say it but those who suffered from mental illnesses were not treated kindly. Many were locked away in asylums, shackled up, beaten, tortured, and forgotten simply because they were misunderstood. The treatments back then were rather barbaric and did little to nothing to actually help the person. Thankfully today there are better treatments available and providers are much more understanding of mental illness.

Some of these older treatments included trephination, bloodletting and purging, isolation and asylums, insulin coma therapy, metrazol therapy, and lobotomy.

As we learn more about the causes and pathology of various mental disorders, the mental health community has developed effective, safe treatments in place of these dangerous, outdated practices. Today, those experiencing mental disorders can benefit from psychotherapy along with biomedical treatment and increased access to care. Treatments will continue to change along with scientific and research developments, and as mental health professionals gain more insight.

Community agencies have worked for years to provide people with the help they need to manage their conditions without entering a facility for life. Social workers, mental health counselors and more have all been involved in this movement, and while it’s safe to say that some communities provide help that’s superior to the level of assistance seen in other communities, it’s clear that people have options for treatment today through community resources that just didn’t exist a decade or so ago.

Laws have also changed, and they now allow concerned family members and community members to place people with mental illnesses inside therapeutic facilities for a short period of time, until they gain control. Some state laws even force people with mental illnesses to take medications, even if they don’t wish to do so.

It’s easy to view these legislative changes as a method that can allow people in the community to live with people who have mental illnesses, without worrying about their health and harm. But people who have mental illnesses have rights, and some don’t wish to accept this kind of treatment. Some patients want to manage their own conditions, using online resources as well as their doctors, and they’d like to have much more autonomy.

It’s unclear what role this might play in the future. But it is clear that practitioners now respect people with mental illnesses to an unprecedented degree, compared with previous years. Rather than silencing them with restraints and drugs, experts now want to partner with patients and help them. This could bring about a form of mental health treatment everyone could support.

Website where I found this information Please be aware that I didn't fully read the entire website and there may be disturbing material found on it, please view at your own risk!!

And here are some websites for therapy techniques and interventions

19 Narrative therapy techniques

15 Psychotherapy techniques

different approaches to psychotherapy explained

10 coolest therapy interventions


I hope this helps and provides information for anyone that needs it. Please feel free to look back at last year's information as it can still be helpful with links and even hotline numbers. Also, feel free to post your story in this thread. Remember, don't be afraid to share your experiences, it can inspire others and show them that they aren't alone.


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Posted: Fri, 23/02/2018 22:00 (6 Years ago)
I have no way to record it either but it's always doing this to me as well. Every time I try to add a pokemon to a trade, either my own trade or offering on someone else's, it will reload.

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Posted: Mon, 22/01/2018 20:49 (6 Years ago)
I like option 2, being able to put in X number of what we want to cook instead of going through the same steps multiple times to cook the same thing 7 times or more.

I like option 2, being able to put in X number of what we want to cook instead of going through the same steps multiple times to cook the same thing 7 times or more.

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Posted: Tue, 07/11/2017 04:35 (7 Years ago)
May I also claim a shiny regigigas please?

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Posted: Tue, 07/11/2017 04:04 (7 Years ago)
Username: ShadowedFury
Pokemon Link(s): Pichu 17470934
Payment: 3 normal gems
Total Number of Tickets: 1
User Referral: FlamingBlaze

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Posted: Wed, 13/09/2017 02:23 (7 Years ago)

Title: YoreFrenzy

Normal Contests:

Usernames of the contest holder(s): ShadowedFury
Time period/overall goal of contest: Hatch a shiny slowyore and hatch a megable slowyore
Link to contest thread/post*: Google Docs



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Posted: Wed, 09/08/2017 08:04 (7 Years ago)
Name: ShadowedFury
How will I Buy:672 tickets for:
40 dark gems
40 fighting gems
140 grass gems
40 ground gems
40 poison gems
20 psychic gems
40 dark blue boxes
4 green boxes
20 light blue boxes
6 pink boxes
6 purple boxes
8 red boxes
15 black boxes
1 gold key


Please let me know if these numbers are correct.

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Posted: Sat, 05/08/2017 21:47 (7 Years ago)
I'm having this problem as well. I just noticed it (not) happening yesterday.

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Posted: Sun, 02/07/2017 04:02 (7 Years ago)
Name: ShadowedFury
Currency: PD
Amount: 50k
Sending to: PunksNotDeadWeAre

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Posted: Thu, 29/06/2017 17:47 (7 Years ago)
Name: ShadowedFury
Which contest: Story
Entry: Being sent to PM
Other: I don't want you to leave!
Pasword: Orchid purple

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Posted: Sun, 25/06/2017 05:42 (7 Years ago)

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Posted: Sun, 04/06/2017 10:16 (7 Years ago)
Name: ShadowedFury
Pokemon:Spinda
Upfront payment method: (50k PD
Status:complete.
Proof: (insert payment method. Eg: 150k PD etc.)
Tips/Donations: (This is optional but you're free to donate or tip me leave blank if you don't wish to do so.)

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Posted: Wed, 31/05/2017 00:11 (7 Years ago)
Username: ShadowedFury
Number of tickets donated: 14
Other: Good luck on your hunt!


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Posted: Sat, 27/05/2017 04:00 (7 Years ago)
My two best memories of PH would include my retro Togepi shiny that I hatched at Easter and receiving a shiny retro totodile from a friend in trade of a shiny that I was hunting.

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Posted: Tue, 09/05/2017 05:56 (7 Years ago)
Looking over these personal stories, seeing how much pain my friends (and even strangers) have been through makes me want to cry because I wish I could simply hug you. I'm very empathetic and touching stories really hit my heart. I'm just glad that you are all still here and know that you're not alone in your struggles. My palpad is always open to anyway that needs anything.

I contemplated writing my story out for all those to view it. In all honestly, I was afraid. I was scared to bare the parts of me that I've hidden from sight for so long but your stories have given me the courage to tell mine. So thank you all for this <3

I grew up a happy child who pretty much had everything I needed. But it wasn't always that way. When I was born, my lung collapsed and I now have asthma because of it. My mother doesn't know who my real father is and tended to pass me off to other family members whenever she pleased. My family loved me though and provided for me. They were my rocks growing up. When I was 3 my mother was in a relationship with a horrible man. He beat her and s. abused me up until my aunt stepped in and took custody of me. Her and my uncle raised me as their child and I'll always be grateful to them. My aunt read to me all the time, which left me yearning for every book that I could get my hands on. I was overweight (like most people in my family) and I had glasses, so I was a ripe target for a lot of bullying. Thankfully some people recognized my sweet and funny personality and became my friends. I was outgoing during those years and had a good amount of friends. I went to parties and sleepovers and never had a bad thought.

All of that changed when I went to middle school. Depression started to hit me hard and though I had been in therapy when I was younger, I stopped until I went to middle school. The medication and therapy sessions just weren't reaching me and I overdosed at age 13. That was the first time that I went to the hospital. I liked it there, I didn't have all of the outside worries that I had in 'reality'. So when I left and was thrown back into school the next day (Valentine's day of all days..) I was shocked to see my name paired with my crush's name on a bulletin board. It felt like everything was crashing in on me and I went straight back to the hospital for another week until I learned how to cope with 'reality' after leaving the hospital.

Over the years I struggled, I was diagnosed with depression and put on countless meds that never seemed to help. At 15 my 'parents' got divorced and I went to live with my aunt, which meant switching schools. I was always so good at keeping my grades up, even though I never wanted to actually be in school. I missed my friends and lived with my uncle after a few months. For my 16th birthday, they came together and threw me a sweet 16 party. However, none of my friends showed up. Not a single one. I had family there but it was so heart breaking for me. After that I tried to commit suicide again, each time just not thinking about the consequences because I wanted the pain to end. At 18 I moved in with a boyfriend and was s. abused by his stepdad for a year before being able to move out and get away. I jumped around a lot, from family member to family member, to friend to friend, never feeling like I belonged anywhere but not being able to get my own place. I had never worked a job and had no experience. I felt like I was caught in a loop.

Several years passed and I though I was living the high life. I was living with my real mom and going to college online because I was way too scared to live on a campus and attend a real school. Though I was going for Human Service Management (I wanted to be a therapist), I was using drugs when not doing my homework and even attempted suicide once or twice more. I was able to get my degree but I felt like it wasn't enough. I went back to get my bachelors in the same field and kept doing what I was doing. Eventually I moved around a lot more, even moved out of state to live with a boyfriend but I still felt like something was amiss in my life. I started roleplaying a lot and getting lost on the computer, it was (and still is) my refuge. Slowly the computer replaced 'real' friends and I dug deeper and deeper into a pit where I just wanted to be by myself. After moving back home I got into a big fight with my new 'stepdad' or I should say my aunt's new husband and got kicked out of the house. I lived with my real mother and sister after that and suffered my first manic episode. I wrote checks that I couldn't pay for and ran up a credit card with Amazon without realizing what I was doing. Soon after that I found out that my mother was tucking money away to pay for a cruise for herself instead of paying the bills and we all had to leave. I literally had no where to go but thankfully a friend from the internet offered me a bedroom in Ohio. I left and went there for a year.

It was a tough year for me because I suffered depression and manic episodes, often doing things that were dangerous but I didn't care. I ended up with a boyfriend and moved in with his family but he didn't treat me right. My depression grew and I attempted suicide several times while there. I moved in with 'friends' after that and slowly learned that they were big drug addicts, preferring to spend money on drugs than bills. Even I got sucked into the frenzy, doing drugs and trying to forget about the pain that I constantly felt inside. I attempted suicide twice more before I was able to get out of that situation and come back home, home with my aunt.

Over the years I've been diagnosed as depression/manic on the depressive side (because I have that more than manic episodes), borderline personality disorder, anxiety, social anxiety, agoraphobia, bipolar, and schitzo-affective on the depression side. I tend to connect better to people when I'm on the computer rather than face to face. However, I'm proud to say that over the last 2 years, I have not attempted suicide again. My last attempt was a wake up call. I overdosed and went to bed, never expecting to wake up but I did. I took that as a sign that I was meant to be here for a reason. Even if it meant only helping one person in this world.

I went and got my masters in psychology degree online and learned a lot about my diagnoses and ways to cope. I've learned that medication isn't a magic pill that'll make me feel better. I have to help myself get better. I'll never be 'cured' as there is no cure from what I suffer from, but there are ways to help deal with it. It's almost like cancer, it goes into remission and I'm ok for a while, but then there are times that it hits me again and I have to seek out help. I've been in and out of hospitals and though I believe they help some people, they never helped me. I've learned that by reaching out to people and using coping skills, that it prevents me from seeking out harmful behaviors. I see a therapist and take medications to treat my symptoms but I've learned that I am not my diagnosis. It doesn't define me and I don't have to let it dictate who I am. I've become a strong advocate for mental health awareness and I still want to be a therapist or at least something that helps others. I want others to know that there are people out there willing to help, people that can truly understand your situation. You are not alone, never forget that. Even when the odds don't feel as though they are in your favor, there's still someone out there that's in your corner.

Everyone has traumas, even if they aren't traumatic to you, it could be to them. Remember that kindness can go a long way because you don't know what that person is dealing with silently. Pay it forward and kindness will find you. Look for little rays of hope even in the bleakest moments and remember that it will get better. Even if you have to make it better yourself.

Please never be afraid to reach out to me. My palpad is always open and you're free from judgment while talking to me. I can offer advice or I can even listen while you vent. Even if I help just one person, I feel like I've made a difference in this world and that's all that we can hope for.

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