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I guess It'd be good to start one of these things. I'm a shiny breeder now, it's fun. I'm probably going to Universal studios of Hollywood with my aunt, uncle and my??? Cousin??? Is confusing, techinically she's my uncle's wife's niece, and I'm his sister's kid so we're related by law only and I've never met her, and I don't think she's the one doing drugs but I could be wrong. SO I'm nervous, I'm meeting family and going to the U.S.H. and I'm just so nervous. What if she HATES ME. what if she think's I'm some brat! She's older than e what if she thinks I'm an attention seeking good for nothing. or a crybaby. or what if she doesn't like me for being a They oh god i'm going to DIE.

It's the second day of 2019 and I'm already over whelmed. I have 12 sci-fi books checked out from the local library and I'm half way through one of them. I usually read books like one eats popcorn. Way too much way too fast and it occasionally makes you cry. am I the only one who gets salt in their eye's when eating popcorn, no? really??? My cousin Is actually amazing, she loves me and i's awesome. We went to the USH and it was great, I wish we could have stayed longer in Honeydukes but it was still pretty good. Harry Potter and the Forbidden Journey broke down while we were on it and I freaked out but It was still amazing. New years was fun and yesterday I started cookie clicker I Have 4 days to do a science fair project which was due before break but now I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure as a person. As a gamer I'm cool! but as a person I'm lame. Welp tomorrow I want to do some people skills improvement so off to the park behind my house!

fifth of November. Embaressingly enough I've taken to writeing in this more than my literal journal I have oh my god. :S So I have only gotten to 36 on my chain of tangela. I've been mostly at the game center, or at the berry garden 2 of the most minor parts of this game :S honestly I love the berry garden and the game center.

FOR IRL THOUGH IM PRETTY SHIETE :S

I have to do all of my science fair tomorrow and research and everything because I procrastinated so much. I found this cool band called the Oh Hellos and it's great, I love their album dear wormwood. No new music in like 4 years I think but they still do concerts. I love the music. it's NOT always sunny in California, in fact it's raining right now, and my fingers are so cold. I got a hair cut yesterday oof. I love it so much.

I'm screwed though for school stuff but I kind of really miss it. Most of my PH heroes are college age or older or they are way younger like 10 or nine. so I can't really relate to anyone right now on the site age wise.
BYE IM TOO TIRED TO WRITE MORE.

hnng, I didn't do my science fair because my ex pm'd me on a different site and ruined my mentality half way through, I've been getting migraines lately ugghh, could because I've been listening to way too much electric music lately but it's whatever my favorite songs are too good for me to stop listening to okay. :0 I hate being in the closet sometimes so much. it's like "Oh Hello dudette" "hey~ girl :)" :( it just sucks that I can't just tell them, yesterday also one of the members of our literature club said that he had seen my pic in the year book, but see the thing is. I was a transfer student and wasn't in the yearbook :S
and my friend (he's my, not close, friend. Ish :P ) was like "I know it's you Madeline" and my brain just does a WTF my birthname isn't madeline, it's not even @*$&ing close! and he's like "yeah and I know your brother too" and I was like "hey I'm not madeline *&##$#*&$@, I don't look like her, and believe me, I've known her since I was 6. Also I'm an only child." and his face was priceless. :)

Hey so my username isn't tpruurteh anymore but whatever.
school's been tough a lot of my classmates are bullying me now and it really hurts, Today some kids yelled at me in the halls, I found out my sketchbook that went missing was with a group of seventh graders and they were laughing at my vent art and one of them said they wanted to keep it so I had to intervene. it had my name and a little note on where to turn it in if found so I know they took it :( my binder had been taken after second period (I had to go to the office to get something) and I didn't know what to do and I found it in my fifth period with half of the page ripped up.

What did I even do to have to deal with this? I know I'm an easy target since I don't have irl friends (stuff happened in two months okay!) and am not handsome or anything, but getting kicked in the shins and getting notes on my back is starting to really get to me. I mean, do I deserve this? I just want some friends. :c I have to get ready for high school in a few months so I'm really scared but I know 9th grade I'm coming out to my teachers as non-binary because I really can't stand one more day of the harassment and the (accidental) mis-gendering by everyone.