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Emil_Steilsson

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                                                Posted: Sat, 27/02/2016 04:20                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

"I'm from a little city with expensive taste,
Where the cars don't run until the engine breaks. Wasn't spending pennies on a mess of things, But invested in mess with this recipe. Couldn't quite see what the future held, and as days went by it would tell itself. Let it struggle just a little bit more, Let it struggle just a little bit more."

Hello... My name is Dmitri Braginsky. I represent the country of Ukraine. I am one of the countries relating to Russia. That'd be Belarus, Russia, and me. My close friends are Latvia and Russia, along some other minorities. I try to be polite and emotionless, sorry if I seem odd at times...

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                                                Posted: Mon, 14/03/2016 21:39                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

A L F R E D F. J O N E S

♥ Probably the best person to ever exist. Alfred never seems to be too upset about important issues. He is just chill. He has a soft heart. I am so glad we met. He is probably one of my best friends. He deals with me when I have breakdowns. He deals with my awkwardness. Thank you, so much, Alfred. ♥

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                                                Posted: Sun, 27/03/2016 23:28                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

&#10022 Probably the best thing ever &#10022
♥ ------------------------ ♥

Emil_Steilsson

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                                                Posted: Tue, 29/03/2016 15:44                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

Title: March 29th, 2016

It is so hard to smile at a time like this. Why is she still trying to make me cry? What'd I ever do to her? I try to be nice. Civil, in fact. She targets me and acts as if I am a disease. Most people at my school call me a disease. Why? I never did anything. We still can't find Chris. We need him so I can get a passport. I wonder if he is even alive. What would they do, then? Would they allow just Chelsea to help me get one?

Taco ripped up the carpet. Shreds were everywhere. I hate her, sometimes. I wish I could get rid of her. Besides, I am a cat person. I wasn't too joyful when I woke up with a boxer in my bed. I dislike most dogs. The only dog I've ever really loved was Mario. And ever since I fought with Ryan, I haven't been allowed to see him. They think I'm dangerous. They are scared of what I might do. I'm no monster, I just defend myself and my family. He had hurt Chelsea, so I hurt him. I am quite civil, most of the time.

Ivan is starting to like me more. I do not want to rush into a relationship. The last time I did that, he broke my heart. My friends make fun of my relationships. In my last relationship, they joked about him hurting me. What the hell? Who does that? It sickens me to question why they could say such things. Regardless, I love Ivan. He's my heart and soul, and I don't know how to show him that. I will continue to be myself, I suppose. He seems to be the only one who likes me for me. I'm like coffee. Most people don't like me until they change something about me.

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                                                Posted: Wed, 30/03/2016 19:42                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

Title: March 30th, 2016

I think I'm depressed. I don't feel depressed, though. I just feel empty. Like life has nothing more to offer me. I was told that suicide would dishonor your ancestors, though, so I can't. I won't. I will try to overcome this blankness. It hurts a little bit. I don't feel loved. I feel as if everybody around me is disgusted by me. I apologize a lot. Nobody cares. They probably think I'm pitiful. I won't post anything depressing in a feed, though. You must be pretty low to do that. I will just continue to hope. Like my about me currently says, pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. I may feel pain, but I will NOT suffer. I will defeat this emptiness best I can.

He doesn't love me. He never will. I'm not right for him. We have nothing in common. He said that his last relationship failed because they had nothing in common. I want a future with him, but he doesn't want one with me, and I'll have to accept that. I will move on, I will find someone to heal this wound that they call a broken heart... But... I can't help falling in love with him. I see his messages and my heart jumps... It hurts when he dislikes me. It hurts. It really hurts. Sometimes I curl up on my bed and sob. Sometimes I shame myself for thinking anyone could love me. My last relationship... I thought he loved me. I need to stop expecting. These people destroy me. It hurts so, so much.
greg was here

Emil_Steilsson

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                                                Posted: Sun, 03/04/2016 13:38                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

Title: April 3rd, 2016

I'm really lonely. Everyone I once loved hates me. I loved someone, and I can't help still loving them. They won't forgive me, though. I am a terrible person... I'm so creepy.. I just wish I was likable... I once considered myself likable. I'm not. I'm a crybaby. I- *sigh* ...

Small entry, I'm sorry. I just feel empty. If I have no emotions/vague emotions sometimes, how can I express them?

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                                                Posted: Sun, 24/07/2016 21:15                                                (8 Years ago)
                                            

AND HIS NAME IS JOhn CENA