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Posted: Tue, 12/05/2015 01:37 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 20
-The Living Tombstone "It's Been so Long"
Dear Dumb Diary,
Crane Flies and Daddylonglegs are my sworn enemies...
**** has introduced me to Glove and Boots which has kept me entertained for a long time X3 I really enjoy their videos...
STILL NO SHINY SCYTHER ;n; Not much to say... Just trying to level up Vincent and Gerakina, and hatch my Knight Axew
<3, Innie
Posted: Tue, 12/05/2015 23:12 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 21
"I can't return, I know.
"Still a cowardly insect crawling on the floor.
"Montblancs are so sweet,
"I want to have bare feet
"as I indulge in things that make me happy."
-GUMI "Coward Montblanc"
Dear Dumb Diary,
I've been listening to and reading Michele Elliott and Karen Straughan works. I absolutely agree with the majority of their statements. Feminism deserves to die, it's pure sexism and is holding the world back from true equality. (Also, Big Red is a **BLEEP**-ing banshee and deserves to be tossed into a Volcano alive.)
My Knight Axew hatched. Named him Aragorn after the warrior in LOTR.
Oh...guess what? STILL NO SHINY SCYTHER.
Crunchy told me more about himself. It's nice to learn about others...
<3, Innie
Posted: Wed, 13/05/2015 20:10 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 22
"Uneasy lumps sway back and forth... I've waited for so long."
-Oliver "The Twaddles of a Flu Faker"
Dear Dumb Diary,
Crunchy might kill himself soon. I don't know how to help or what to do. I'd only make it worse. I'm going to miss him... I hope he doesn't do it...
Today has been a bad day. First one of my kittens dies, then Crunchy tells us he's going to kill himself soon, and I'm going through something myself. My existential crisis is getting worse and worse by the day...
Still...still no shiny scyther.
</3, Innie
Posted: Fri, 15/05/2015 00:58 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 23
"After all, everyone in the world will be dead one hundred years from now."
-Miku and Gumi "Spinal Fluid Explosion Girl"
"Time and time again,
"I have looked for some small reason to live,
"but I'm still not sure about anything,
"not even why I cry."
-Miku "Crier"
Dear Dumb Diary,
Crunchy is still here. I'm glad.
My existential crisis is still happening. I want to cook, but I've no kitchen to cook in. I feel like ending everything, but I'm scared of what will happen. Either I'll face God and be sent to Hell, or I'll wither and rot away. But what if my atoms, my cells retain memories, emotions, thoughts, and feelingsthat will haunt me until my brain is devoured?! I'm too much a coward to take the cowards way out...how ironic.
*sigh* Still no shiny Scyther. I'm working on leveling and evolving certain Pokemon from my storage, just for the heck of it.
</3, Innie
Posted: Sun, 17/05/2015 01:16 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 24
"and you look to the north, where the pale moon is rising,
"and it seems like is dying, and would leave the world to mourn;
"in the distance hear the laughter of the last unicorn."
-"The Last Unicorn"
Dear Dumb Diary,
My kittens have gone missing... I'm worried. Delphie won't stop crying about her babies being gone. If the neighbor's dog so much as SNIFFED them, I'll blow it's ugly brain's out!
...aaargh! I feel so pirate-ish...
Finally obtained the Soothe Bells I needed to evolve some of my Pokémon. STILL NO SHINY SCYTHER...
</3, Innie
Posted: Sun, 17/05/2015 18:37 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 25
"one love thrilling me through,
"one song my heart keeps singing
"of one love only for you."
-Snow White "One Song"
Dear Dumb Diary,
All sparkly clean :3 I love when my hair is clean uwu All sweet-smelling and soft and curly...
*sigh* I miss my kittens...
**** seems happier lately...odd... I'm happy for him, though ^u^
STILL. NO. SHINY. SCYTHER. HHHHHNNNNNGGGGGHHHH....
<3, Innie
Posted: Mon, 18/05/2015 20:38 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 26
"I would have no inkling of how precious life can be.
"If I never held you, I would never have a clue
"how at last I'd find in you the missing part of me.
"In this world so full of fear, full of rage and lies,
"I can see the truth so clear in your eyes, so dry your eyes.
"And I'm so grateful to you, I'd have lived my whole life through
"lost forever if I never knew you."
-"If I Never Knew You" (From "Pocahontas")
**** asked if I would be the Mangle to his Foxy ^u^ My heart skipped a beat~ He's off to an audition tonight :) The Wizard of Oz. I think he's trying out for the Tin Man UwU
Trying to evolve some Pokemon. Shellos, Carvanha, and Tentacool all evolve at level 30, Gastly at level 25, and Knight Axew at level 38, then level 48 to fully evolve... Got a long way to go.
STILL NO SHINY. O-e
<3, Innie
Posted: Thu, 21/05/2015 12:01 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 27
Thursday was my 8th anniversary with my bf~
So I was watching this video and decided to mark what I can and can not do :3
-I can wiggle both ears
-I can raise my left eyebrow
-I can't "roll" my tongue :c
-I can tickle myself (and, like Rhett mentioned, it's due to my schizophrenic issues)
-I can't touch my nose with my tongue ^^;
-I can't lick my elbow X3
-I can't twitch my nose :c (but I can flare my nostrils)
I is weird :3
I got a lot of events! :0 Cost me over 150,000PD all together, but I got 'em :)
<3, Innie
Posted: Sat, 23/05/2015 16:01 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 28
I've decided that I should make a list of my fears:
-Acrophobia (the fear of heights)
-Bathophobia (the fear of deep water)
-Claustrophobia (the fear of tight spaces)
-Cynophobia (the fear of dogs)
-Elevator-phobia (the fear of elevators)
-Monophobia (the fear of being alone)
-Omegaphobia (the fear of endings)
-Opilionesphobia (the fear of Daddy Longlegs)
-Scopophobia (the fear of being looked at/watched)
-Tacophobia (the fear of high speed)
-Taphephobia (the fear of being buried alive)
Still nue shineh -.-
<3, Innie
Posted: Thu, 28/05/2015 13:00 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 29
Been scared and creeped out lately. Not much to write. I'm very fat now.
Need: 3 Soothe Bells, 1 Leaf Stone, 1 King's Crown, 5 Mega-Stones.
Note: Mega-Evolve Mesa, leave Gerakina and David as they are.
</3, Innie
Posted: Mon, 01/06/2015 17:14 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 30
I've had Sleep Paralysis and Insomnia lately. I have a dopamine deficiency and I'm more depressed than usual. I hate to say it, but I think it's time I tried medication again. I don't care about allergic reactions or addiction...I just wanna be normal.
My collection is slowly but surely coming along. I adore it.
<3, Innie
Posted: Mon, 01/06/2015 22:41 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 31- Shinies to Hunt
-Arbok
-Nidoking
-Psyduck
-Poliwhirl
-Victreebell
-Rapidash
-Magneton
-Grimer & Muk
-Shellder & Cloyster
-Gastly & Haunter
-Voltorb
-Cubone: Zirra
-Koffing & Wheezing
-Horsea
-Staryu & Starmie
-Lapras
-Porygon
-Furret: Bubblegum
-Crobat
-Mareep
-Bellossom
-Politoed: Cotton Candy
-Jumpluff
-Dunsparce: Jelly Swirl
-Shuckle: Blue Raspberry
-Slugma: Platinum
-Grovyle
-Shiftry: Nutcracker
-Medicham
-Camerupt
-Flygon
-Altaria
-Seviper
-Lunatone
-Milotic
-Sheilgon: Sour Apple
-Roserade
-Driftloon
-Buneary
-Chatot
-Spiritomb
-Lumineon
-Gallade
-Emboar
-Musharna
-Male Purrloin: Salem
-Gigalith
-Lilligant
-Krokorok: Tourtle
-Female Yamask: Danielle
-Garbodor: Gummy
-Reuniclus
-Foongus: Masta
-Chandelure
-Cryogonal: Frollo
-Stunfisk
-Hydreigon
Greninja
Bunnelby
Furfrou
Espurr
Spritzee
Slurpuff
Barbaracle
Dragalge
Clauncher: Sebastian
Tyrantrum
Hawlucha
Dedenne
Carbink
Trevenant
Pumpkaboo & Gourgeist
Bergmite
Noibat
Posted: Wed, 17/06/2015 00:06 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 32
My scars are starting to reappear. I've bought skin-toned make up (the lightest they had) so let's hope it works...
I hope to be more active online here in the winter. Until then, I can only hope my friends will be okay.
Things with **** are going great! He acknowledged me publicly! QuQ He's a bit possessive and jealous, which means I'm having to leave some old friends, all the guys...but I'm ok with that.
<3, Innie
Posted: Thu, 18/06/2015 14:47 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 33
I've learned a bit more about myself, which is both terrifying and wonderful. **** isn't too happy with a certain part of me, but I'm not going to deny who I am. Hide, yes, but not deny.
Gave Tennis back to Crunchy, since "this is IT", whatever that means. It's not the first time something like this has happened, won't be the last. I'll eventually hunt my own, if I get back into this site. Looks like I'll be buying the new event, I can't force myself to make a ton of interactions with all the stress I'm going through.
I'm considering making a blog, just for my own sake. A virtual diary elsewhere. I'll do some research... I've just set up my Tumblr Blog but it's still in the works. I like how it is so far, and it'll be helpful in getting my thoughts out. It'll be tons more mature and open than this PokeHeroes diary thingy...
Been lonely lately. As much as I love ****, not being able to physically see him is...*sigh*
Anna's birthday was a few days ago. I hope she had a good one.
</3, Innie
Posted: Tue, 01/09/2015 13:12 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 34- "My Themes"
Hatsune Miku "A Song I'd Like to Sing"
IA "A Young Girl's Self-Harm Habit"
One Republic "Counting Stars"
Hatsune Miku "Crier"
Sweet Ann "ECHO"
Hatsune Miku "Deep Sea Girl"
Hatsune Miku "Goodbye"
Evanescence "Imaginary"
Evanescence "Lithium"
Keane "Somewhere Only We Know"
Hatsune Miku & GUMI "Spinal Fluid Explosion Girl"
OLIVER "Starlight Keeper"
Hozier "Take Me to Church"
Sum 41 "The Hell Song"
The Fray "You Found Me"
"" I will update in the future.
<3, Innie
Posted: Tue, 13/10/2015 08:52 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 35
**** told me his fave Pokemon :) It's nice to know he's getting more into my interests without having to force himself. His favorite Pokemon: Mr. Mime, Dedenne, Froakie (although, he calls it by it's Japanese name, Keromatsu), Moltres, Elekid, Charizard, Blastoise, and Porygon. ^u^ We celebrated our 1 year anniversary last month UwU Still going strong~
Also, I got him so many gifts for Xmas, and I hope to get him more, but money is so tight these days, and with my mental issues, I might not be able to get a job. My worst fear is that I'll be put on disability funds and end up being a burden to the country...
</3, Innie
Posted: Tue, 20/10/2015 17:03 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 36
I sometimes wish I were a spider. People wouldn't treat me with phony words, they'd cut to the chase and kill me.
Also having 8 legs would make it easier to exorcise.
I hate everything. Life is meaningless and pointless and in ten million years nothing will exist.
Cheesecake is delicious.
</3, Whatever is Left of Innie
Posted: Tue, 20/10/2015 17:25 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 37- Events to Obtain
-Princess Smoochum
-Zomppet
-Seatran
-Derpatung
-Mr. Bagon
-Valenfloon
-Driflamp
-Flower Boy
-Flower Girl
-Rodeo Scraggy
-Skugar
-Disguised Exeggcute
-Satichu
-Tom Nook
-Jolly Jr.
-Sad Jr.
-Sugar Shock
-Snowling
Posted: Tue, 20/10/2015 17:54 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 38- Plushies Wishlist
Sandshrew
Wigglytuff
Vileplume
Golduck
Kadabra
Victreebel
Slowyore
Doduo
Muk
Shellder
Gastly
Koffing
Chansey
Ditto
Vaporeon
Jolteon
Flareon
Dragonair
Mew
Chikorita
Meganium
Sentret
Furret
Hoothoot
Togepi
Mareep
Bellossom
Hopip
Wobbuffet
Girafarig
Ursaring
Kingdra
Elekid
Raikou
Entei
Suicune
Ludicolo
Seedot
Gardevoir
Nosepass
Plusle
Minun
Swalot
Carvanha
Wailmer
Cacnea
Altaria
Lunatone
Castform
Kecleon
Shuppet
Chimecho
MegaAbsol
Spheal
White Chocoluc
Chimchar
Puplup
Bidoof
Shinx
Cherrim (Sunny)
Drifloon
Drifblim
Bonsly
Mime Jr.
Sad Jr.
Munchlax
Lumineon
Mantyke
Snover
Abomasnow
Weavile
Togekiss
Glaceon
Mamoswine
Porygon-Z
Rotom
Giratina
Darkrai
Snivy
Oshawott
Pansage
Pansear
Woobat
Audino
Tympole
Sawk
Petlil
Darumaka
Yamask
Minccino
Solosis
Duosion
Vanillite
Emolga
Tynamo
Lampent
Chandelure
Axew
Cubchoo
Deino
Froakie
Skiddo
Pancham
Furfrou
Spritzee
Inkay
Sylveon
Goodra
Phantump
Pumpkaboo
Posted: Wed, 04/11/2015 06:11 (9 Years ago)
Title: Entry 39- Revalations
Today I came out as genderqueer to my boyfriend. He's totally cool with it! I can't wait to indulge more into my gender identity!
I plan to start losing weight too. It won't be easy, but I want to.
Oh, and I removed a certain someone from my life. I realized I didn't need their friendship and that they'd been a big waste of my time. **** was proud of me :)
Guess that's really all for now.
</3, Innie